Lucky What I Own, Hate What I Envy

10 things about guys I hate most

2011-10-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

1. No respect, no sense of humour, not understanding
2. Irresponsible and not appreciative in certain ways
3. Only do the things they WANT or NEED
4. Always think they should be priority cause their the MAN
5. Wants to be in control all the time
6. Never think about the good stuff
7. Only think about friends and other things
8. Lazy and not work smartly
9. Never gives in or be patient to tolerate certain situations
10. Take everybody and everything for granted

Maybe others might have different opinions as I do but as for mine, it's mostly due to the people around me and whom I've met or known that potray out this kind of image towards me which made me have this long-term opinion. Don't really care if anybody agrees or not but that's who I am. DIRECT. Not all are like that definitely but most of them will behave like this no matter how good the girl is to them?

I just never learn to understand why does this get proven to me all the time. Is it luck problem or maybe I'm just being with the wrong kind of guys all the time? That's why maybe sometimes I choose to be single and live my life happily working hard. What for have someone with you when you have to suffer still? No matter how I believe things would meant to work out for me, it never will.

Well, good luck girls and be smart with who you really choose to be with :).

My 2nd uncle's death story. Why must he torture himself?

2011-10-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm back again!

It's been a long time since I've been blogging as I have been so busy dealing with many things such as working for my dad few months now, going to Australia to attend my cousin's wedding and just got out of a relationship all in one time. Although I love blogging so much but I could barely find a TIME for me to at least blog by the seconds. Time is as of the essence and I feel so bad to my readers as I used to blog alot before cause I had much free time back then as I was studying and technically doin nothin' but just assignments crawling over my head.

For now, I've been working/helping for my dad in his company in "Kelana Jaya" whereby his company is selling traditional herbal medication, health foods and some beauty products. Been working for about newly 4 months and there are many things which I have to learn. Actually traditional herbal medication is apparently not my kind of line as I'm a graduated make-up artist. It would take many years of knowledge and thorough reasearch and studies in order to learn more by experience to help my father as he is growing older every year, so I'm trying my very best.
So far in the recent times there were many things that happened and it's gotta take a lot of courage in order to been through what I had to go through. Well actually I started writing back as I'm here to tell a story which I hope everybody would learn from.

Here the story goes:

When I was young during my days, I simply ate whatever that came into my mind and I didn't really care what the food I had caused. As usual, everybody loves to eat "Maccas" (Mc Donalds) and so do I *giggles*, tin-canned/ processed foods, "Assam Laksa" and many more so called "great foods in Malaysia. During the older days, Malaysian food was basically the BEST food known ever but NOW?
It seems people are getting more lazy so they tend to SHORTCUT the food, that's the reason why nowadays more people are getting more sick easily. The most disease we get from are mainly cause by the unhealthy foods that we eat. The food that we shouldn't eat by right, I would explain it on my next blog post hopefully.

After this recent incident which my 2nd uncle died of severe diabetes and pneumonia, I finally realize how much we should really take care of our health and lifestyle. This incident happened because my uncle was a fan of FOODS as of any kind. He loves to eat sweet stuff, curry with very large amount of rice, "chee cheong fun", "assam laksa"; all the usual Malaysian food you can find around. The best part is no matter how the food sucks he would finish it cause he is that kind of person whereby he would never love to waste food. Due to the many years amount of food intake, this caused him to his death. he just passed away few days ago when I was in Australia celebrating my cousin's wedding and when I heard the news I was really devastated as I couldn't even say goodbye.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is everybody should really take care of their health and their lifestyle. Foods are the main cause and TRUST me even smoking isn't as bad as how much food can cause your life to be more of a risk to take. Since I myself is a social smoker (self-admitting), now with all the intoxication foods I've been eating, I feel even worse than smoking. Now that I've grown so much older, it's even harder for me to retrieve back what I had taken into my stomach but luckily my dad sells herbal medication so I could take care of my health even more better. So do BEWARE whilst you're young and do better really take care!!!

พอใจ...I love you - Bixae

2011-07-26T06:57:00.001+08:00

KBS GT Radial Drift Force Malaysia X'Mas Motorsport Party!!!

2010-12-03T11:12:00.000+08:00

THOSE WHO ONLY INTERESTED IN MODIFIED CARS OR CAR AUTOSHOW

Date: SATURDAY, DECEMBER 4, 2010

Location: Kawasan tapak Pasar Malam Presint 2 , PUTRAJAYA

SPECIFIC LOCATION:

Presint 2 , Further down the bridge of the mosque. A very huge parking space surrounded by Goverment Buildings.

ORGANIZER: KBS (Kementerian Belia & Sukan)

CO- ORGANIZER: GT Radial Drift Force

Monkii White House

MORE INFO:

In this event , it will be similiar to the Halloween Autoshow but this time car clubs are compulsory to send in their heavy modified cars for a SOLO COMPETITION. At the same time car clubs must also present themselves with Christmas Deco. That's not all..... From the halloween party we have best car club model but this time, we will have a sexy best car club santarina contest. So what are you waiting for? Gear up yourself and come battle for this biggest Autoshow in Putrajaya. Event is in support of KBS (Kementerian Belia & Sukan).

Rules and Regulations:-

~Specific location is at the Mosque Bridge. It's near to a big roundabout.
~Car Clubs are allowed to present min.5 cars to max.15 cars.
~SOLO COMPETITION cars will be be maximum 3 cars from each Car CLubs
~Car CLub Battle cars will be charge RM20 each car and SOLO competition will be Charge RM30 each car.
~Judging will be judge in 5 different categories for car clubs and 3 different categories for SOLO competition.
~Car Clubs are recommended to do extra Christmast Deco on the cars to get extra marks.
~Cars are compulsory to roll in at 2.00p.m. SHARP!!!
~Please be on time for the event , failure to do so may result deduction in 30 points.
~Early Birds Register will have a JPJ and Polis Trafik approval letter for the convoy to this event.
~The Organizer reserves the right to change these rules and regulations without prior notice.
~Event is organized by Monkii Whitehouse and Media covered by Extreme Kars Magazine.
~Event is in support of Kementerian Belia & Sukan

So what are you guys waiting for???? Call up for register for this spectacular, memorable and exciting year end autoshow. We promise to give a happening event like the previous Halloween Autoshow. Registration opens until the event day.

For More Info and Registration please Call (017-3990636) - Justin

INTERESTED TO LEARN MAKE-UP - CHEAP PRICE!!

2010-07-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hurry!! Promotion price now!! RM50 basic make-up class. 1 day 2 hours 1 lesson only. Interested? Msg me thanks! Can't find it anywhere else :)

I will raise the price later but as for now I will give you my best price. What you waiting for?!

E-mail: poopiebumz@gmail.com

The Real Work

2010-07-01T02:57:00.000+08:00

I've just quitted my work at "Joyce Couture" and started thinking about things. I shouldn't waste anymore time. Now I just set up a little office at Kelana Jaya and start my make-up business. This is something I have decided to carry on and go ahead to do this regardless whether I will succeed or not, I will still have to try. It's going to be not easy but nothing's easy.

Now just deciding on a name for my company which I'm stressing about. Even though I'm doing freelance make-up but I still need to start with a small company first. I would set up the place properly and get everything done in order first but then feel free to drop by if you want. I will still open for any business. That's now for the moment. Well anymore details, I will write again.

If you're interested in make-up. Don't hesitate to call me or leave me a comment. Thanks! Stay tuned for more updates.

Joyce Couture @ Kota Damansara

2010-06-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

Finally I managed to get a job at "Joyce Couture" located at Kota Damansara. I am still doing freelance make-up but I'm just taking it easy and do another job in the meantime. Fahsion line? I know nothing much about fashion stuff but I do know about beauty stuff. I know I could be good at this!

There was this 1 time, I was never a consultant or never a fashion advisor but I had a classmate once and she never knew how to dress up herself or anything about fashion. So what I did was to change her into somebody who knows how to dress up. It's like a total new her. After bringing her shopping, giving her some opinions/advise on what not or to wear, the woman she is today is totally different. She's kind of big sized, so I told her to try to wear clothes that are less tight, less bright and not too wide. Wear clothes that makes u not only good but feel comfortable and confident where you go out and everybody just looks at you. Do not force the clothing onto yourself unless you're sure your body fits it.

Give you a hint:

"Never make the clothing fit you.
You make your body fit the clothing."

Anyway, I may not even have the most perfect fashion sense on my own but I do believe in myself. Usually when I go out, I just wear casually but when I go to dinners or some occassions, I really do dress up! Since I'm more to the cosmetics industry, I'm not sure how long or far I would go through this job but I do know until for a long time. Of course, I would always love to be a boss of my own and I can't work under people forever. I only hope to work this successfully until I could build my dreams to set up my own academy one day. Who knows? Maybe I will be in the fashion industry as well.

Since when does woman can't multi-task? :)

Feel free to drop by and I will help u in this shop, if you're not sure where or what to buy!!
Think about this place. It's worth visiting :)

Port Dickson - "MyviStreet" Anniversary

2010-06-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

This trip was a trip for the Anniversary of a car club team "Myvi Street". We went there last Saturday (May 29, 2010) and stayed there for only one night. They rented the penthouse suite which is not really that big but it was good enough to fit the 16 of us with 6 rooms all together. It was my first time following them, so it's kind of a first time experience following a car club team where we all meet at one place then go all together.

As I was inside, I couldn't see what does it like on th eoutside but I know it would look like about 8 Myvi cars driving all together in one row on the same road. Looks cool huh? Sorry didn't manage to capture that.

When we arrived it was already afternoon. We had steamboat for lunch and it was cooked by one of the team member's girlfriend. Taste nice especially the soup. Later in the afternoon, we all went to check out the swimming pool but then to find out there were so mnay indians and malays swimming in there so I don't think it was a good idea to jump in there. What if they pee in there? YUCKS?! So end up we all went to the beach to check out the scenery. The beach looks clean when seen above from our balcony in the penthouse but as we got closer, the beach is not as clear as we thought. We played for awhile then head onto "BBQ" time.

Everything went on great but kind of boring cause there was nothing much to do and sadly couldn't get to swim so kindda wasted. As we waited for the charcoal to heat up in order to gril the food, there were some photo sessions going on. My camera wasn't so good so didn't take much pictures. After awhile, it rained and that sucked cause wasted our "BBQ" session then those who were not full yet could have steamboat again. The rest of them started drinking and have some talking session until about 3 or 4 in the morning then most of them went to bed early.

The next day, we all woke up in the early afternoon and prepared to head home. When we reached back to Petaling Jaya, we all were so exhausted. But anyway, guessed we all had fun and a good experience.

Tell me what you see in this picture?

2010-05-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

Guys Are So Fucking Annoying?

2010-05-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

Actually, I'm writing this cause I really feel damn fuck up and really getting sick and tired. For so many years, I've been driving around like some goose chasing after some chicken or something. Unexplainable. There are a few things I analyze. That guys are always never fair and we have to be fair.

Guys and their sickos attitude:

1) Want hot and slim chicks
2) Hot chicks are diamonds and fat chicks are a disgrace
3) No asking too many questions
4) You either follow along with the outing or just stay at home
5) Don't grumble, annoy and talk too much
6) If not nice to the them he dumps you
7) It's best you listen to what he wants not what YOU want
8) It's ok for him to ignore u but u can't ignore him
9) Follow his friends out and probably doesn't bother if ur bored
10) Never say no cause they hate the word?

I don't care about how good some guys are but mostly all also like that. Little bit of change also don't have. Those guys who are the best are the one's who are the smartest and fattest cause they know it's hard for them to find a gf so they will definitely stay to one only.

FAT CHICKS

Why are fat and ugly chicks are so hated so much? WTF they do to you guys that only the slim and pretty ones get all the attention. I understand that most of every guy loves hot n slim girls but doesn't mean the ugly or fat ones should be put aside and to what? Kill themselves? Seriously I don't understand all this guys are thinking. Honestly, I don't care what you're gonna say about me cause this is what have been proven to me for so many years I have observed.

Even how hot the chick is but if she got no brains then hot also no point. Or what if her heart and attitude like shit? Then what's the point of loving them. I don't know, but what I see is mostly guys love to like slutty girls with no brain also nevermind. Maybe cause they everything also say yes? Maybe that's what a guy really want; a girl who gives them freedom, don't ask so many questions and don't bother them too much. I really don't understand. They are humans too you know? Think about it. If the hot chick was treating you lke shit, won't you start thinking if you wanted to be treated bad just cause of a hot girl? What makes you guys think fat or ugly chicks have such bad image you guys don't dare to be with them? What if they change? There's such thing as a fucking slimming centre or slimming drinks. Who knows if you've accepted the way and love her for who she is she becomes the hottest girl ever. Seriously think about it.

Don't expect or fuss too much cause u will regret in the end
What do you all guys expect seriously? Damn fucking annoying. In fact, nowadays are just worse than girls. They are acting like one now! Really omgwtf. Please tell me something that I can understand. But no matter how, my impression of guys is just 10%. No matter how hard I try to be nice and think they all just need time to change but no they never will. If I could get a guy to prove me wrong that guys are not what I said then prove it if not just fuck it that all the way guys will always be like that. Terrible creatures! =]

Not everything is read from the beginning :)

2010-05-24T13:11:00.001+08:00

How do you save a papaya from falling?

2010-05-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

JUST PLACE A BRA :)

Chapter 5 : Malaysians this Century

2010-05-22T08:02:00.001+08:00

Malaysians?

Dangerous but still well and living

MY OPINION:

Kindda stupid cause we're being under the control of a Malay government which makes our country pretty skeptical and not so open minded. Alot of things being banned which makes the country even more complicated than as it is. I don't deny that Malaysia is not really safe but it's much better now. Which country is super safe?

In fact, some countries are far worse than we are. We have alot of rape cases that's cause our government is a Malay, so they banned those movies such as PORNOGRAPHY which makes some guys tend to NEED to have sex and when once they can't get a girl, they would be in anger and turn into a rapist. If this country is taken over by a Chinese, I believe our country will be way betta.

Malaysians has 3 different races and 3 different ways of living with absolutely a very weird mentality.

Malays:
I hate them alot cause they don't need to use their brains. They can get any help from the government and their lives NOW are not as hard as before. They don't really think much cause they all mostly depend on the government to help them deal or go through their lives. The malays here are unfair, they only help their OWN people. Other than that they don't really care.
Mostly, they love fighting cause to them physical actions would tend to solve problems but little did they think about the consequences behind it.

Indians:
Some of them are quite cunning and very fierce if it was those uneducated ones. Those educated ones are pretty smart, rich and very polite. But still I don't trust them cause I have been betrayed before by an indian friend.

Well, I'm not judging based on just what happened to me. Based on what I see almost everyday of my life. Indians are a little better than the Malays. Indians don't carry so much of grudge against anyone. I think they are those type who helps you if you ask them politely if not they just don't give a fuck about you. They think straight and just do what they suppose to do. They wouldn't care about what's happening. If I'm not wrong the indians will help the chinese more than the Malays. The most scary race in Malaysia are the indians as they can be merciless when it comes to fights.

Chinese:
Some chinese, I just can't stand them cause their too stingy or too proud of what they have. Nonetheless, sometimes can be an embarrassment to the Chinese race. The way they think here is seriously weird, sometimes you just feel like whacking their brains out and asking it "what the hell you thinkin' in there".

The mentality of the chinese here seriously sucks. I mean, can be childish sometimes or of what that doesn't even make sense. TRUST ME. I met many who seriously need a mental hospital to go into. The chinese here work really hard though to get what they want or to live for (like my parents: MAJOR workaholic) in order to live in luxury and have an early retirement. But too bad if they would have children who don't give them good lives (like ME lol). The chinese here work smart more than working hard. The word "smart" plays an important role in their jobs.

The 3 different levels:

High Class (Show offs) - Who only spend money like water , money is all they think about. Mostly like branded stuff like Louis Vuitton, is totally so into themselves and can be very stingy.

Middle Class (Lucky) - Could afford almost anything but think wisely before spending, help friends with how much they have to offer, quite generous and willing to spend.

Lower Class (Low self-esteem) - Can't afford lots of things, lives in a small area, doesn't know what "good life" is about but very nice people to be with. They could only envy what the richer has but to make themselves one, most of them wouldn't dream of that as they jsut want a simple life.

GUESS WHICH CLASS I AM??? :)

Malaysian Boys:
Some very "ah beng", can't stand it. Uneducated nevermind but then mentality? I so can't take it cause they totally can't even understand what you're trying to sya sometimes. Some malaysian guys don't know how to dress themselves up unlike Singaporean guys. Always on the go and ready with their good lookin' outfit and perfectly combed hair. Malaysian guys can be impolite, very rough and only think about themselves.
They always think about "girls" or "cars". Other than that? I don't think so. I don't like their mentality especially, I mean the way they think sometimes gets on my nerves. It's like you can't communicate with them although you're right in front of their face!!

You can't think what are on their minds when you're out "yam cha" with them. The guys here either talk heaps of bullshit or they would just sit there and be quiet for GOD know how long. Most of them totally undecisive. Very rare you will find the guys here making an ACTUAL decision of simple things like "what to eat?". Really egoistic people, care alot for their face especialyl in front of their friends. I would say Singapore guys mostly are smarter than Malaysian guys.

The way the guys here do things is so terrible, you'd probably vomit blood just by talking to them. The guys here mostly loves to hangout only with chicks that are HOT, if you're not, then you'd probably not see them a second time. They treat pretty girls really nice like respect them and everything almost like a Goddess. Those of who are not pretty can just sit at home and DREAM. They only want to have fun most of the time!

Malaysian Girls:
The girls here are pretty hot as they care for their body quite alot. Some girls here don't know how to dress up or even make themselves pretty but those that know mostly are quite vain and love cam-whoring (reminds you of someone? LOL).
The girls here whom you know through a club, mostly can't count on. But the girls mostly in clubs are quite friendly and they wouldn't be so proud. Some of course are materialitic but then in my opinion, Malaysian girls are not that materialistic as their quite independant nowadays, they can afford to live without their bf's.

Most girls here can drive, can go shopping or hangout with girls and have fun with their own without the boys. The girls here are more into themselves rather than getting obsessed with boy who are not worth it! The girls here know how to make themselves happy. Of course, they would need a guy too to be by their side but not that much. The girls here different, classy yet nice and very independant.

CONCLUSION:
Malaysians can be a little prick in the ass but I don't think their as mean as you think. Yes, this place can be dangerous but which country isn't? The people here have weird mentality but still can think straight. Although I'm a born Malaysian but I seriously don't like this country at all and maybe that's cause is ruled under a Malay government.
Well honestly, I'm quite a racist, as I only hangout with my own race or Koreans, Viets, Indo-chinese and a few more. I'm like the kind of person who hangouts with any kinds of race but only PREFERS my own people.

Malaysia is not a bad country as well. We have great nightlife. Great food with reasonable price. Shopping here can be expensive also can be very cheap (if you know how to find). You can relax more in Malaysia, not as stress as many other countries. I mean look at me? I still can relax and enjoy even if I'm 25 years old which is not good but I'm trying to let you people know that in Malaysia, you can live almost one of the best lives. I'm too relax in Malaysia that's why I need a country like Singapore to have control over me. With money you're SOMEBODY(even police give way to you), with no money you're NOTHING.

Malaysia is famous for Land of "Make Your Own Rules."

♠ Live Life the Fullest. Enjoy it while you can. ♠ Live Life the Fullest. Enjoy it while you can ♠

Chapter 4: The Happenings so far at 2010

2010-05-18T21:25:00.003+08:00

What can you say about this? Is there really a difference between the old or new century?

Well, some people change to be good or bad and some never changes at all. I can say that everything happening now is way far different compared to the olden days where everybody used to be so old school and so unmodernized or conservative.

Try and OBSERVE now and see what you can get to see in this time now compared to last time.

The Guys and Girls

1984-2000

Just love everything about each other. Goes through career and always planning for their future with how many hundred kids. Always on time in everything and everywhere. Have a mind set of not playing the fool or messing around with whoever. Will try their best to fix things that happens in an orderly place. No gossips. Everything is all about career and family plan. At this stage, every guys/girls are mostly the goody/nerdy type.

2001-2010

Guys:

Thinks about themselves.

Fools around too much.

A girl is never enough.

Games and cars except business.

Gays or even transvetite.

Gym.

Behave and think like girls nowadays.

Facial.

Reading cleo magazine.

Let girls do the courting.

Clubbing.

Marry early and might not even fulfill their responsibilities.

Being very slow at actions/thinking. Many excuses and choices.

Not so strong on the career.

Don't care more than care.

Selfish.

Not punctual and always late.

Sleep late.

Drugs.

Boxers.

Dancing.

Cheerleader.

Girls:

Shopping is everything.

Some very strong in pursuing career.

All about guys.

Play around with guys feelings.

Quite revengeful.

Smarter than the guys.

Cheat on the nice ones.

Lesbians.

The face is the most important part.

Make-up is everything.

Bloggerlicious.

Knows more alot into the technology side.

Watching porn, drinking, smoking.

Spontaneous.

Chase after guys.

Clubbing.

Doesn't believe in love as much.

Career-minded.

Girl power.

Sleep late.

Lazy.

Spaghetti tops and mini-skirts.

COME TO THINK OF IT

Actually, at this era. We are actually almost the same just that in different sexes, race and attiutude. The cycle repeats itself but just that as the coming of every year seems to be getting worse and worse. Have you ever thought we might have change to become back to the time where our parents were that time?

The children that grow up nowadays are way far more smarter that parents or any young adults than you can imagine or expected. Nobody knows why or how could this happen but it's happening. Believe it or not.

Is this actually karma? Maybe as we get worse is all the cause of the many things we have right now which I feel is not that wrong just that maybe sometimes people just take it the wrong way and deal with things unsupervised.

(eg. A girl who gets pregnant at the age 14 or A 12 year old boy who rapes a girl age 9).

The things we learn now and learn then was way different. The people at this era are more lazy compared than when the time at my parents time. But can't help it can we since wwe have everything up to date now. Every country has to be as modern and upgrade their lifestyle in every way they suppose to be.

The girls/guys are fair now. Both sexes also sleep around now not like last time. Some things remain the old fashion way but some don't. Now girls do the chasing and the caring like the guys are the baby. It has been a common thing now that nobody cares anymore. Now this era, no such thing as you're a guy you're damn big. Both same level just different status.

LOOK AT WHAT WE HAVE NOW?
Technology: MSN, FACEBOOK, WEBSITES, BLOGGING, WEBCAM, SKYPE, TWITTER, HTML.
Phones: IPhone, Blackberry
Computers: iMac, Dell, Sony VAIO
Games: PS3, Sony WII, PSP (Dota, L4D, WOW)
Places: Clubs, Pubs, Mamaks, Cafe, Bistro
Shopping: KLCC, Mid Valley, Pavillion, The Gardens, 1Utama, Curve
Entertainment: Porn, Karaoke

With all these, how can the people not change? Everybody SURE change, depends on whether their easy influenced or not. As for me, I ain't that easy. Just be myself.

BE YOURSELF! BE WHO YOU ARE.
IF NOBODY APPRECIATES, YOU'RE THE ONE GETTING BLESSED NOT THEM :)

Sheri's Online Shop

2010-05-14T07:28:00.003+08:00

INTRO

Why do I create this blogshop in the same page of my blog?
I want to be different. I can't be bothered on another page. It's better to all one shot.

What do I sell?
I sell almost everything from handmade to second hand stuff or unwanted/used.

What makes my blogshop different?
The same page as my blog and I sell things that are handmade by me and unique at a reasonable price.

THE RULES

1. Choose your favourite item
2. Made payment via RHB (1-1438-9000-2905-8) Sherilyn Yap Yin Yin
3. Contact: poopiebumz@gmail.com (Number given privately)
4. Give me the details of PRODUCT NAME / ADDRESS / PAYMENT DETAILS
5. Allow max 3 days to get your stuff.
6. Price available on all items excludes postage charges.
7. Handmade items by me ONLY have one design by itself for each. So once bought, no more stock.
8. Don't hesitate to ask me any questions.
9. No hanky panky. I handle my business firmly. You have my word.
10. All prices are fixed at a reasonable rate. Buy more, more cheaper it gets!

ITEMS WILL BE POSTED SOON! THANKS.

HAPPY SHOPPING :)

MAN / GUYS AND THEIR EXCUSES! OMGWTF :)

2010-04-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I have been blogging. Well, the recent happening I was at "Zouk,KL" celebrating my friend's birthday and thank goodness I wasn't drunk.I don't intend to anyway, didn't have the mood of drinking at that moment but somehow it was kindda boring as I did not know many people there and the music was not as satisfying as I thought it would be. Somehow, I have been going out "yam cha" lately and I have been analyzing this for a very long time.

You see, the thing is I've been going out with people who are nice but their talking subjects are really not nice. They talk about cars all the time during our "yam cha" session. Well, I do understand that this is all guys talk and probably better than talking about chicks but everyday, everynight. Not bored? Sometimes do you guys ever wonder if the other people sitting beside you feels? Especially when girls are around. Don't you think you should entertain the girls there as well IF there are any. In life, there are many things to talk about not just girls, guys, games, cars. The thing I hate most is with their excuses and broken promises. HATE IT!

Check out what I analyzed (Guy's Favourite Escapes) :-

1) Go home early (But still hanging out with friends)

2) Quit drinking, bad for health (But still drinking)

3) So sleepy and tired (Facebooking for the next few hours)

4) I don't wanna waste money (Still can club, play snooker)

5) I'm sorry, I won't do it again (Continues doing it)

6) I miss u (Go out with the friends more)

7) I love you (Go fb search for chicks)

8) I will change (Never change)

9) You're the cutest thing to me (U make me bored)

10) Come online chat with me. I miss u so much (Ur a boredom reliever)

Anyway, what I don't understand is all the excuses they giving, the things they say can't do, never ending SORRIES. Can say that they will change but when? When the earth has broken into pieces? Broken promises as always and always regretting in the end of however they thought they did was right. Not to say I never gave chance for them to change and observe again but it seems mostly it happens this way.

WHY CAN'T YOU GUYS FUCKING CHANGE?

IS IT THAT HARD?

Talking about this makes me so pissed off lol. Can't stand guys like these anymore nowadays. I get so frustrated don't know why. I used to tolerate alot but now just gets on my nerves. Is there anyway that things could be better? Maybe they will never change anyway. No confident. The many years that I had been observing, is just a waste of my time to actually believe that they would change. Then they wanna blame the girls for being so evil now. What's the fucking point?!

GIRLS JUST LEARN IT FROM YOU GUYS...

THINK ABOUT IT :)

Chapter 3: The Revolution of 2010

2010-01-31T09:52:00.002+08:00

The Year of 2009

Looks like 2009 is gone and now moving onto a NEW year which I find there's nothing to be new about. It's kind of a busy year for me as I had many wedding invitations to attend and there goes my cash! Oh well, but happy for those who finally could start a family of their own. What is so grand about 2009? The usual which is either relationships problem or weddings. Something different in this year was probably frustrations during Christmas eve and New year celebrations which had brought havoc and misunderstandings between that situation. Well, what you expect as everywhere had heavy traffic. Still, people would go out celebrating.

To me, celebrating is 1 thing but then did you get anything out of 2009? If you achieve something then that's good and proceed to the following year for the better but if not then good luck to you. As for me, every year is the same where you just find money, go out and chill/relax and talk about all the nonsense of the things happening around revolving us. And "BOOM" 2010 is coming!

The Year of 2010

What's your motto for this year? Hmm, I don't fucking have a motto but well like I always said "Enjoy while you still can before it's too late."

Who gives a shit anyway? Everything will follow as it goes like some bloody routine.

Example:

Work or study, go out yam cha, if not play some games then go to bed. Clubbing when you really need to drive your ears mad or sing in Karaoke lounges to satisfy your lungs. Take some smoke and enjoy every puff while you're at it.

I believe this year would be better cause it's time for more income! HAHA! Aihz..talk like so big but don't know will happen or not lol. Sometimes if what you expect turns out to be what it's not, can be fucking depressing. But yet never give up as there are many years ahead but then again honestly once you're age have reached like after 21 years then things tend to moving faster than you can imagine. Am I true? I don't know, maybe because I'm used to develop this bad habit of observations of the things or people that are around me.

2010 seems like a nice number. Ain't it? But are there really going to be any changes this year? Besides cigarattes, sugar or something like that. Honestly speaking, smoking for so many years. How to quit? In fact, you can just depends on how strong you determination is to quit. You can if you REALLY want to. TRUST ME. Why should you, who am I to you right you all must be thinking? But well, it happens so that's why I could write this out. For so on and what so ever, the question now is:

Ever dreamed of becoming somebody you're not?

Do you still ponder about your unworkable relationship?

Will you still be the same person as you have been all those years?

What do you want to accomplish every brand new year?

You set a goal, could you achieve it?

Still want to enjoy life and party like a wild animal?

How far or how long can you stand being in a world like this?

Our country seems pretty SLOW at almost everything. Like music which I could download faster than they just release the song on the radio. They claim it would be a brand new song but yet I've already heard it cause I got it from other countries. Thanks to some of my friends who introduced me some good songs where they have it there and probably I will never get to hear it until after like 2 years since I'm here? The street fashion here sucks cause their sense of style not that well updated. I mean, look at Singapore? Their fashion sense is extremely well admired. Thank goodness I like to be fast when it comes to these things. But which girl is not? Most of every girl's are into fashion but not all girls are into cars unlike me. I prefer modifying a car than to go out shopping. At least I can drive it everyday and it's MINE. I don't own a fucking shopping centre lol so technically I don't give a shit about shopping although to waste time doing that sometimes is a good occupancy of time.

What am I going to do for the start of this new year?

I'm going to set up a booth to sell some hand-made stuff and some other things which I have all the way from Taiwan. I wouldn't know how well these things are gonna sell but yeah if you don't try you'll never know.

How am I going to go through the whole of this year?

Honestly, I'm not sure but if this booth thingy works out then I shall continues with it for as long as I can since now I have not found a permanent job yet. But selling things may not be as of my interest but I get to learn and experience the fun out of it and also getting to know more people. Anyway, I need a lot of contacts to help me with my career and so on.

What am I supposed to achieve this year?

Graduate from being a make-up artist and probably be a freelancer. Hopefully, with enough income that I make would be able to help me to pursue my so called "Dream career" which is? I'm not telling haha! But I'm VERY SURE I would be a make-up artist in the future. Good or not depends on my what my customers would think of my skills as a make-up artist. I don't believe my make-up is that good enough to work in the overseas but I'm happy to be here.

My friends are here anyway, I'd be sad to be apart from them even though I know how important it is to pursue your career. But that's me; I would never go to some place where I don't know anybody. Why risk your life, when there are so much better things you can find out from in Malaysia even if this country is slow. But Malaysia is not as bad cause we don't have to suffer tragedies like mother's nature. So basically, I'm cool staying in Malaysia. Might not earn much by being here, but is all depending on your creativity and how smart you are. Like creating something that hasn't exist before.

Future plans?

Making use of the knowledge I have all combine into 1 to create something unusual and worth your money. Maybe write a book, even though I know I may never find a publisher. Be a long-term blogger who never quits writing.

Motto?

There's nothing more important than believing in yourself and what you can do no matter what people say. Without love, life can never be beautiful but all this starts from home first.

My revolution:

Professional Make-up Artist

A never give up blogger

Online business maker

Last words....

DOESN'T MEAN I WAS A FAILURE, I WILL ALWAYS BE ONE.

2010-01-05T03:05:00.003+08:00

Another brand new year. Any new year's resolutions you might wanna share with me? Please write it in my "cbox" on the right of the page. Sorry as I had been busy with work which I work only for Christmas promotion. I worked almost everyday for a full month with only 3 days off so cause of this I barely had time for anything! Thanks for all the wishes especially Christmas as well, I really do appreciate it.

31st December, 2009
Didn't know where to go and didn't do nothing much so I was stuck in a jam in Sunway and went to Hartamas. That was how I celebrate? Kindda lame actually but then I guess there's always another "New Year" or maybe is the AGE problem that would have cost me to get over the fact that I celebrated new year's technically in the car haha. By the time, I got home was around 5am and then I played facebook games which I had been addicted recently after my work at Loccitane@Curve.

1st January, 2010
Woke up around 2pm and had a dinner party in Kajang with my family but was kindda boring as well. My cousin who came back from Australia had nothing much to do as well besides goin' out with his close friends and catching up. By the time I got back to Petaling Jaya, it was already almost 1am and I went to meet up with Alia (my gunbound friend) had some "teh tarik" as she had to go Terengganu to go back to college which is a fucking lame place. I mean, who could survive there? I know most of them who grew up there could but me? NEVER!

2nd January
Nothing much except eating my mum's cooking and went up with Wern Yuan for a drink at "Kayu" and talk about some job stuff which I'm still finding for a permanent so that I could start afresh instead of being the "World's Greatest Bummer". Somehow, you outgrow it and you want to change.

Anyway, hope everybody new years went well. I believe everybody could've enjoyed themselves especially those early birds who weren't stuck in the horrifying traffic. Hopefully things will change although is a new years but to me, every new year seems to be the same and nothing much has changed except for some price changes. Honestly, I'm still uncertain of what I want or who I would want to become but I do know that I regret not fulfilling things which I should've done in the past but it's never too late to learn.

For so long I've spent my time blogging cause I feel is a better of expressing myself and sharing my experience everybody might or may never experience. Nobody is perfect in this world but sometimes is no harm to be a perfectionist. I admire and envy those people who are so smart with books and terminologies which I know I may never have in my whole entire life but I know I'm willing to learn.

The story of chapters will still be continued. It's gonna be like a storybook. And those who have been really reading this blog, I thank you alot because at least there's someone out there who can join me and my stories. Probably may not be the best thing you read or might not be that interesting but I've always tried my best to be a good blogger. I wonder have you guys ever wondered what to do since it's a new year? i mean, what is new year? Why do we celebrate new year, if every new year is practically the same? lol? Prices going up...the funniest thing is now the "Dunhill" cigarattes, they make the packaging so attractive but in a way asking us smokers to quit. How to? Lame..

Well, no matter what...life still goes on. It depends only if you know how to deal with it or not. There will always be obstacles in life where you must try to solve and I believe if there's a will there's a way. Nobody likes to be unhappy although there will always be problems and goals to persue. Never give up hope as I had always said cause that what makes life a beautiful place to live in. Of course, there are many people who are luckier in life, but I'm sure they also do have their ups and downs. But at least, they knwo what they want in life and carry on achieving it.

So, tell me what is new year? What do you think this new year could bring you? Happy? Sad? Maybe a much more better government (no offence). Everything never really seem to change so I don't really see what's the purpose of celebrating every new year when there's no meaning to it. I might be wrong and if I am, do correct me. I'm just saying it based on my opinion of what I have upon new year's celebration. What is considered REAL and what is not? If so, please tell me cause I really don't understand.

Anyway, will update you my next story haha!
Happy New Year - Prosper Madness!

Chapter 2: Difference between Fuck Buddies, ONS, Make love

2009-10-05T07:27:00.003+08:00

WHAT IS SEX?

Sex is something where both people have that "feeling" within each other. Can be fantasizable, can be passionate dependant on both partners itself. It can be complimented as "enjoyment" or "good exercise". Different people with different kind of reasons on how to explain the terms of sex.

To me, sex is a feeling that comes right after when you feel so in love with that person. Is like you just want to stop talking and do something far more than just talking or going out with each other. Of course, sex is not everything but everything is all about sex. Sex can be boring at times when it's not interesting. It really depends on how both people deal with it.

Example, some like ROUGH, FANTASY (Doctor and nurse), SLOW, FAST, TURN-ON (SM) sex. It's always better to do something DIFFERENT than the same thing all the time, it gets boring. I'm serious! Not just kissing, stripping, both partners get the "feel" then that's it. Not boring? Well, not all people are as interesting as they seem. Some guys might seem quiet on the outside but once on the bed their fucking monster LOL!

SEX CATEGORY

Fuck Buddies

These are the types whereby it's only just plain sex, if there's more to it then I got nothing to say lol. Usually, their either friends or some where they've just met in the club. Fuck buddies aren't meant to like each other if not it can be really hurtful cause if the guy/girl aren't single then it's troublesome. So remember if you're into this kind of GAME then you gotta play by its RULES which is:

1) No faling in love

2) Pretend like nothing happened

3) Call each other only when in NEED

4) Don't bring trouble amongst each other

5) No hard feelings

6) Trust each other (words don't spread out)

You only go for this game when you're not ready to get committed into a relationship. For those who already is a couple of someone else then good luck! Try not to get caught then :).

Why does this happens?

It happens mainly is either their partners don't give them ENOUGH or their just bored of sex-ing the same dick/vagina all the time. Sometimes this happens also because of lack of attention then when 1 other person comes into the picture and hangout together most of the time then there goes the "feeling" that comes into the mind. Some guys would prefer to stay as fuck buddies cause no matter how they still want their girlfriend/boyfriend. Not to say selfish but they just would prefer the 1 they always had from the start. Fucking someone else is bad but doens't mean they don't love their partner. Probably dick or pussy is ITCHY so yeah can't help it I guess? I don't know how they have the heart to do this but if I were to do this shit then I'd rather be single so I don't hurt anybody's feelings. Now I know why most guys say single the best *wink wink*.

ONS (One Night Stand)

"Touch 'N' go". Do it then that's it for the night; no more contact, just friends. This usually happens in a club I think. If there's elsewhere then I'm not sure as I do have friends who does this. But anyway it's the 21st century so it's considered normal. Sometimes you just have the feeling of wanting to fuck. But then again it's always okay for the guys and as for the girls is a little hard cause girls are quoted as sensitive/fragile. Normally, this happens cause maybe it's the right time and right place or just DRUNK. Mostly is that "excuse" to cover their FACES. Nowadays world is changing. Even "sex party" has occurred in Malaysia so I suppose or assume that Malaysians are getting more open-minded compared to last time? Even the GIRLS nowadays are far more wild than the guys!

P/s: Becareful of yourself being posted on you tube!

Make Love

AhhH! This section? Hmm? What can I say about it lo? This is the BEST FEELING among the sections above that I wrote about. Why? Making love is good in a way cause there's the INNER feeling and the OUTER feeling.

INNER: Missionary Style

OUTER: Both partner's feeling towards each other

That's why the way to describe this is "Making Love".

But nowadays, relationships are so complicated, making love becomes RARE now. Hardly you get to see any loving couples who could last long til' the end. By the mid of their relationship their probably figuring out how to find someone else to have sex with.

I have a friend who actually has a girlfriend but then outside he's screwing others and when I ask why this happens, they say te girlfriend don't give them enough or their SKILLS ain't good and it gets boring. Then I ask why do they still want to be with his girlfriend? Then he says "Cause I still love her and I don't intend to break up with her". I was like WTF is that?! Latest TREND or somethin'? I mean that's the lamest reason I ever came across with. I call these type of guys "Itchy bastards" lol. But no matter how, whatever a guy/girl does, as a friend you can NEVER stop them from what they're doing even though how many advice you've told.

To me, if you want to do all this shit then don't get a girlfriend/boyfriend then however way you screw around it's your problem. As a girl, I know what's the feeling like when your partner does all this bullshit. But then again this century it's the girls who are the ones getting bored and finding other to fuck. LOVE has no meaning anymore cause people seem to fuck around alot. Well I guess NOW in this era is normal? That's why some people prefer to have fuck buddies.

The thing is because when you fuck someone else who isn't your partner you don't feel as painful when they are YOUR own partner. You basically don't feel anything as you don't need to worry or care for them or what they do everyday. The moment your partner dumps you, there goes the EMONESS.

Take my advice:

Don't be boring! Have some "Lingerie Party" with your mate. Change fantasies and then you'd probably enjoy your sex life more than you expected :)

CONCLUSION

Like I said it really depends on the person itself. Not everyone are as open-minded and spoontaneous as they seem to be. Some guys do really CARE about what kind of girl she is but to me so what? Who cares about the past. People do and change for the better. Nowadays there's no difference upon guys/girls. All same STATUS. Doesn't guys do things then girls can't (e.g. Smoking). I think guys fuck around to much so much so that now girls are slowly paying back the revenge they had from the past? Alot of my guy friends now are being cheated on by their girlfriends. Well, what can I say? All the while, girls were always loyal at heart but the guys are only loyal to vaginas. So whatever it is, always be careful when you're in the?

"SEX GAME"

"Play by the rules. Don't fuck with the rules"

Singapore Trip (15-17 Sept.2009)

2009-09-29T07:58:00.001+08:00

September 15th
Reached at around 9pm then went to have late dinner before checking in to Value Hotel which is located at Balliester Rd. Then went to a pub with my friends at don't know where lol. By the time I got back to the hotel was around 1 something then was kindda bored knowing that I don't sleep early. But then bought a few magazines to read at a shop called "Cheers" just downstairs fo the hotel. This hotel costs SG70/night and is very nice. I'm satisfied with it. Will choose that hotel again the next time I go down again!
September 16th

(ILUMA)

Woke up at 10:30am which is considered damn early for me. Then wondered around the room, took a shower and prepare to go out SHOPPING! First time I took a bus over there and I actually reach the destination! WOW? Sorry just kindda unindependant at that moment LOL. I checked "ION Orchard" a new shopping mall which is really beautiful and all the brands are there. WOOT! Another quite nice one is "Paragon" and then lastly went to "Takashimaya". Lost count in time and then soon it was dinner time. I went to another shopping mall named "ILUMA". Too bad I didn't get to take any pictures. Iluma is like 1 of the best shopping outlook design I've ever seen. After that, I went back to the hotel and was totally so knocked out! Moreover had to go back early in the morning so it's good to have a good night's rest.

September 17

Reached my house at around 5:00pm then shower and rest for abit then later at night went down to the pub downstairs of my condominium to have a chat with Jacqueline and took my dinner. Then went out with my friends for some "yam cha" session and tell them all about the trip.

Conclusion

My favourite hangouts in Singapore:

ION Orchard

Paragon

Vivo City

Takashimaya

Bugis Junction

2009-09-26T07:16:00.004+08:00

Why are guys mostly A-holeS?

2009-09-25T05:28:00.014+08:00

There are many different types of guys all over the world. The different types of them which I've known my past 25 years of my life.

1) Loves to fuck around and nothing but fucking

2) If you're pretty, I'm there for you

3) Too nice/fights over his friend over a girl

4) Want to keep the gf but yet still want to have others

5) Drugs

6) Clubbing

7) Over work/no such thing as fun

8) Talks alot of cock but deep inside their nothing

9) Fucking think with their dickhead

10) Only wants to go out 1 on 1; no others

Recently, I have known a guy in "facebook" who's name is Daniel Au Yong and currently working under events department for "RED SQUARE" club which is closed down at the moment but will be re-opening soon next month I guess?. His Looks? Alright but attitude totally CMI (Cannot make it). I mean, it doesn't mean you have the money, body, looks and you're somebody GRAND where you can get any girl you want. Other girls might fancy him but honestly I don't give a shit who the fuck you are.

I've known him in facebook not long ago actually and we don't talk much but knowing that I'm quite a sociable person, doesn't mean I allow you to fuck me around like a barbie doll although to "some" guys I have the "COME FUCK ME" face. I seriously don't understand what's up with these guys? I think having a brain is not enough. Still need another 1? Yeah, the one that FUCKS. He called me out last night and I was free had nothing to do so went out with him to have dinner and have a drive around the city. He is about 20 years old only. After few hours of talking and driving around, I finally reached home around 4 something in the morning. Then he text me asking if I wanted to follow him to go back Ipoh the next day and I rejected his offer cause I had things to do the next day then he got so pissed off, he said "Whatever. I got no interest with you anymore, don't find me again."

WTF LMAO! From the start, I don't ask those people I don't really know to go out with me unless I'm OVERLY bored then MAYBE yes but other than that I prefer my OWN friends to hangout with. Because I'm the type that if you don't know who I am then call me to see if I'm available or not and get to know me more as a friend. If you don't have the balls to do that then don't be a friend of mine, just FUCK OFF.

THE HANDSOME

Handsome, rich, famous?

What's the point? I don't see any point. Their mostly not the stable ones who wants to get committed. They prefer the lifestyle of FLINGS and girl fans as well as competition of girls fighting for them. Don't admire those type of girls in fact. If you're going for their money and let them fuck and you then probably it's okay to some girls. I don't deny for the fact that most girls go for guys cause of their MONEY. What to do? These guys love showing off too much with their luxurious lifestyle so that's the kind of chick you would expect to get. Want a nice and loyal 1 to you? Can! When the girl is blinded by his looks and broken promises/lies.

To me, money I have. Don't need to depend on guys like these. I see these type of guys like a WHITE DRAGONFRUIT. Pretty on the outside but ugly on the inside and worse to eat than the red dragonfruit.

THE UNPREDICTABLE

Never expected to be who he's not?

LOL! Many who turns out to be whom their not. Always saying their this and that but end up? Also useless and totally can't be depended on. Sometimes you may never know who he really is until you get married with him then you'd probably see his TRUE colours. I mean, who knows? He might even be a serial rapist but to you only, he is like the BEST guy you've ever known.

These type are so dangerous as you don't know what their thinking at times while others are busy chatting or laughin' away.

Don't be OVER confident you REALLY know him THAT well enough to prove he loves you so much.

THE UGLY,FAT,REJECTION

I pity these type of guys alot cause they can't even get to touch a girl or a girl touching them; let alone having SEX? Sometimes people are born the way they are but doesn't mean they can't change the way they look. They are still human. Of course, I admit myself I wouldn't date and fuck these type of guy but I wouldn't mind being friends with them cause at least they are TRUE people where you know they can be really be there for you. The other thing is that, they would never cheat on you if you love them truly as they know with that kind of outlook they would hardly ever in their lives to find somebody to love them or even take a look at their face!

They remind me of a bowl of "Penang Laksa". The outlook not that presentable but once you eat it, it's fucking delicious. But then again, very rare you would find guys who are really NICE nowadays. Most of them either wants to have sex or just treat you as a boredom reliever. These type of guy are the ones who could really be friends FOREVER.

GAYS

GAYS are girls best friend to ME cause they understand a girl mostly. So wasted! They have the look of a really cute pretty boy kind of face but then they love guys. Certain guys become like this because of the cause of the amount of girls who hurts their feelings so they decide to change their taste or some are just born like that, who wants to be a girl and be pretty. I never look down on them cause I think deep down inside they can be really nice people. They can be really nice to talk to and tell you more things they know about girls more than a girl can tell about themselves. SO WASTED!

The type of guy that I like/prefer?

Doesn't mean I've been critizing alot about guys, it means I really hate guys that much. Honestly I don't, it's just that I've been knowing such people through out my life so that's why I want to share it out. Some girls who have known really nice guys, please do APPRECIATE them cause not every guy you can find nowadays who can be really nice to you as a FRIEND. I'm starting to feel really irritated by guys treating me like a clown. If nothing changes and still the same then I'm going to continue criticizing. I'm a fair person. I won't just write all about guys, I will also to the girls but not that bad as I am all the while mostly on the girls' side so don't blame me. If you don't like what I say or feel offended then you can don't read cause I don't really give a damn. I only know, I've pissed off a few already but I don't fucking care lol. Come find me and whack me, I will be waiting......!

I like guys who are:

Smart (capability)

Loyal (both friends and gf)

Funny

Out-going

Understanding/Not easily offended

Sociable/Share interest

Open conversation (can talk about mostly anything)

Open-minded in most ways (excluding fuck buddying)

Spontaneous

Don't mind a girl who smokes/club/swear

If you're not any of the above then please stay away from me! If you are then feel free to find me out for a drink as I wouldn't mind knowing an EXTRA friend.

FUCKERS
Stop thinking about what positions you plan to do with the next chick in line for you and do something with your life?

Aren't you fuckers afraid of getting AIDS or DICK problem? Fucking too much is unhealthy especially how much it sucks whne you start causing a vagina to ITCH. In fact, wanking/masturbate is not as bad. Don't know why some guys just love to have sex all day long or more than 5 times a week. So nice penetrating? Maybe I should shove a dildo up a guy's ass and see how it feels like (except gays) ROFL!

Hope the picture helps to those who are not fuckable on bed :)

.Prove me wrong.

FUCKERS ALWAYS USE THEIR DICKHEADS TO THINK - poopiebumz

HOW PERVERTIC THIS SG GUY IS TO ME :)

2009-09-12T04:54:00.008+08:00

WATCH THE MSN CHATS LOL!

I was browsing through some stuff when suddenly this guy came chatting to me int he "wee" early hours in the morning and I thought he wanted to talk about some stuff but NO! He wanted to have fuckin' cyber sex with me and I was like WTF?! No offence but Singaporean guys shouldbe a little more less PERVERTIC? Thanks :) cause it's kindda annoying to have someone chatting to you with sickling words early in the morning?

Anyway, I knew him from an online game and I "thought" he could be my friend but looks like NOT and luckily he revealed himself as a PERVERTIC if not I'll regret not even as a friend but talking to him! Seriously, Singapore guys....SG girls too stuck up/unfriendly or you're just not capable of getting girls to talk to you that you gotta find someone online where nobody could see who you really are? I thought so :)

Well, Singgapore guys don't let me look down on you :) Start acting a guy who thinks with the "head" above not below!

Close friends are meant to be treasured..

2009-09-11T17:23:00.004+08:00

Can you live life without friends?

B@rMitzvah: NEW CLUB OPENING!!

2009-09-08T21:08:00.006+08:00

Opening on the 15th September

Grand Opening 6th October

Venue: Damansara Perdana

Chapter 1: SEXHONESTY?! SEXLOVE?!

2009-08-27T13:38:00.020+08:00

LOVE, HONESTY, SEX

Life is and has always been very REALISTIC.

There's 2 type's of love that I know which is TRUE and REAL.
1 from marriage and 1 from parents.

The thing is how true is true? How real can love be? Must sex be the IT that solves everything? Love comes by telling the truth about almost everything to your partner in order to understand each other's personality without doubting one another that you're about to commit but will the person be able to accept and love you for who you are?
Some people's past may be pretty bad but I do believe that no matter what, everybody has an opportunity to change despite how bad the person is. Sometimes people are unbelievable as they would turn out to be whom their not. It has been proven that everybody grew up mostly not because of their family background or environment. Is how they want to potray or change themselves into. It depends on how STRONG you can take life to yourself.

Most important thing is never to JUDGE a person for whom they were before. It's just not fucking right because is not fair. Life is never fair. TRUE/FACT. But do you think that YOU can change things to make it fair? If not why would there be the word "bargain" exist? How honest should you be is to be honest only to yourself based on what I have experienced and heard from the older generation. Girls should be who they are and don't give a fuck what people say about them especially to the guys. Being too honest is only hurting yourself. Being smart is a good thing but being too smart is also another thing.

Example:
Boy: Tell me more about you. I love you for who you are.
Girl: I was a slut but I'm changed.
Boy: WTF!? I should have known earlier. I regret now.
Girl: I love you for who you are.
Boy: I'm sorry. Just can't accept the fact.
Girl: You told me those sweet words...
Boy: It's better we give each other some space. Goodbye.

EVEN A FUCKING GAY MAN CAN CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND GET MARRIED!

I guess I'd rather not be honest and just fuck. Anything of the past doesn't matter anymore; what we're looking for here is the FUTURE. You see, when you start running, you never look back.

SEXHONESTY

Girls/Guys....Why don't just fall in love, have good sex and plan for the future? Things would be happier. TRUST ME.

For example: Guy meets girl. Both fall in love with each other and BOOM! There goes the sex in each other. But is there any other story to this?

Couples in loves are easier as they need not have sex toys. They would probably need it if they would want an interesting sex life. But just for the advice; NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW.
All they need is the right FEELING at the right MOMENT. That's when PASSION comes in. Some would prefer the "faster" way which is the oral part, have sex and maybe say "I love you" then knock off to sleep.
As of those who are single, the guys uses their "best friend"(any hand) to masturbate, a sex doll (not sold in Malaysia, sorry!) as in a fake pussy or maybe anything warm which has a hole to deal with. Where else the girls would use their fingers, dildo or vibrator to "satisfy" themselves if their in NEED. I have heard before a girl who tried to use a shower hose to shove up her vagina in order to satisfy her NEEDS. Interesting? I thought so.
That's the sex between couples or singles. But what about the things that you go through before you have it? Don't include ONS or Fuck Buddies please :), their not up to this part of the story yet.

Come to think of it, in this century now, is there anymore passionate sex and even if there is, is it TRUE or REAL?

SEXHONESTY or SEXLOVE?

I actually wonder, how honest will you be to your partners before you have sex? Do you really LOVE your partner when you have sex with them? Why must problems start when the sex is after? Would you regret having sex then? This I really don't know. All I know that in this world TODAY, it is best to just fuck and WHO CARES?! Girls for a change should care more for the dick than the person itself cause that's the only TREASURE a guy has besides money.

NO DICK, NO FATHER'S FUCKING DAY.

I always believed that when you're single, you can finger or masturbate yourself to the max without worrying about anything cause all you have to do is to SATISFY yourself :). But then when you have a partner, you would think to yourself if you should tell him/her all about your life or other sex life first? or simply just let sex in and keep things to yourself until the very end?
In a way, keep things to yourself if not things would be far more unbelievable than you expect it would be. Sex comes with love but before honesty. Depends on what kind of person you're facing. Then again, most guys are the same whereby the vagina comes first. Now I understand why a dildo is made.
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Try and think about this. What am I tryin to say?

Part 1 -:

Boy: Looks into the mirror undressed, the mind confused and looking lost.

Girl: Undressed on the bed. Stares at the clock that ticks which never stops...feels sad

Part 2 -:

Girl: Cravings for sex. Loves everything but the real dildo. Should she buy another BETTER dildo?

Boy: Cravings for high-rated 100% freshly tasted vaginas with the X-tra ice-cream would be better. But is the X-tra he wants or the inner creamy feeling inside of the vagina?

Part 3 -:

Girl: Changes her mind. Maybe the REAL dildo could be WORTH after all. Besides, no matter real/fake, it's still a dildo. The few things money can never buy is HAPPINESS.

Boy: Maybe a TRUE vagina is worth the risk taking for.

Part 4 -:

Boy: So loyal yet so unchanged. Vaginas still forever no.1

Girl: No matter how a girl is loyal to her 1 dildo, a guy will always be there to destroy it no matter what in order for him to take over.
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Anyway, in a certain manner, sex is not everything but sex seems to place a more important issue more than LOVE now in this era. It becomes that the word "love" has no meaning anymore generally. How is this so? I really wish there would be a "Q&A Book" where you could just open it and find any answer to every question asked.

The 2 words in english I find it most difficult to learn.

"KEEP CLIMBING"

It takes ALOT just to reach out to know who you really are, what you want in life and to love ONLY yourself.

Busy, busy, busy....!!

2009-08-23T02:30:00.003+08:00

Hey everybody,

Just to announce that I have been pretty busy lately, as well as not being happy lately but yet life has to move on and have been trying to come out with something more interesting than justthe in-look of my lifestyle. I have been thinking for quite sometime and I might come out with a rather more DIFFERENT topic where everyone can read which might be a little offensive in away but hopefully no offence taken.

For the past few days, I have been through a lot of things which as of I would not like to reveal but yet I am still standing tall and I will not give up on moving on with my life.
As of now, I am working as a part-time bar tenderess near my house and have been seriously busy as there would be an event coming up sometime soon. So far, I've thought about my blog and I feel that writing too much about my lifestyle may be abit boring so I've decided to come up with some topic which maybe you people MIGHT like and things going around my lifestyle would be like an advertisement of my blog.

I realized everybody have different ways of living their life and creative ways of blogging. Honestly, I know no shit about blogging but like I said earlier on with 1 of my posts that I could write better than I talk that includes poetry (something like poetry :)). To me, from today onwards you people would probably wonder why do I have such sudden change of writing in my blog but because knowing that I'm a "sort of" big reader of "GutterUncensored.com", therefore I wondered why is it that everything is all about the girls? I'm not siding anybody but I feel someone or somebody has to elaborate more on the girl part. I may not be a professional talker when it comes to this kindda thing but yet I could only tell based on my opinion and life experiences. Well, do correct me if I am ever wrong.

What I'm trying to say is, after reading so many blogs and bla bla bla, why don't I start talking about guys? Whenever pictures are shown, the girls are the one having their face taken and the embarassment is all on she where else the guy could just go to a bar sit there and laugh with his friends about it. Right or wrong? Correct me. Why must the girls always be the victim? I think it's time to prove you guys WRONG :). You can kill me if you want but truly I don't give a fuck.

Please give me a little more time and I promise I would write about something more DIFFERENT than the other posts I had written. When that time comes, seriously no offence people. Bare with my words and please do comment on my posts IF you want to. Well, that's it for NOW. Thanks for those has been keeping up-to-date with my blog.

I love you all!

Quattro Pictures

2009-07-30T15:15:00.007+08:00

Let the pictures do the talking :) Phuture

2009-07-22T14:04:00.008+08:00

PRE-Burfday Celebration!! CelebratiOn at Zouk THis SAturday =]

2009-07-16T14:04:00.007+08:00

Today is my birthday!!

Date:

July 11,2009

Where:

"Hot hot Pot" and "Little Bally"

Who:

Edmund

Wong

Ah Yau

Moon

Adrian

Jason Loh

Chan Kent

Juki

Sky and his gf

PICTURES

PREZZIES

Love you mum. best prezzie eva!!!

DRUNK FACE

Anyway had a really great time. Thanks to all my friends. Love you guys.

Another celebration at PHUTURE, Zouk this Saturday. Want see more pictures? Don't hesitate to get yourself updated on my blog. Thanks for reading. I really appreciate it. If you want to join me at Zouk, just leave a note on my c-box and I will give you my contact. Thanks!!

SEE YOU ON SATURDAY!!

Some of my favourite Music!!

2009-07-04T16:51:00.002+08:00

TRANSFORMERS: Revenge of "The Fallen"

2009-07-02T14:35:00.004+08:00

Watched the movie with 5 of my friends last night in 1utama (GSC). This movie is fooking awesome man! I don't mind watching it another few more times haha! I loved the surround system, the robots and the way the movie's displayed. The story is not really hard to understand just that you need alot of focus and understanding. They created more robots this time and this 2nd part of Transformers is much more better than the 1st one. THUMBS UP!!

I love Optimus Prime and Bumblebee (cuteness)

Singapore Tripz!! First time I FEEL Singapore's Greatness!

2009-07-01T17:01:00.016+08:00

Day 1 - 26th June, 2009 - Friday

At around 7pm, I had to get ready to go to my Dad's house to have dinner. After dinner, I would set to leave to my cousin's house in Puchong as we would be sitting his car to Singapore. We depart from K.L. at around 8:45pm journey to Singapore. I was so excited. Actually my main purpose to go was to visit my relatives and also try to look for job if I was lucky to get one which I didn't. Not like it was easy, I mean with lack of experience is seriously hard :(. Oh wells, I tried but yet no outcome so might as well enjoy my time since I was there.

On the way, we stopped at Yong Peng, Johor to have some midnight late supper. Guess what?! Out of sudden there was this big argument between the chinese shop owner and an indian man who stopped by the coffee shop to have some food. Apparently, the chinese owner over charged the indian man a meal of RM7 with just a plate of rice with some vegetables who claimed that he ate alot. So the indian man got so furious and kept slamming the table cause of his temper who made him really HOT! Well, I wanted to video the whole scene but I was afraid I would get caught and he would probably sla me in the face! Anyway, the police came to sought out the matter and then I guess the indian man let the matter go but I can tell he was really not satisfied. WHAT A SHOW!! lol!

Then we stopped again at a place where there were fruits sold like in the middle of the night? As my aunt wanted to get some fruits fro my other relatives. Then I came across this WEIRD BANANA which was like 1 1/2 feet long?! WTF!? Looks kind of weird but well it's still a banana after all. But first time in my life I've seen such WEIRD banana?!

By the time I arrived at my cousin's place which was located at Sembawang was like 3a.m. so I went to bed straight! Was really tired!!

Day 2 - 27th June,2009 - Saturday

Woke up around 9.am. which was EARLY to me, maybe cause I wasn't used to it as it wasn't my home. So waited til everyone (my cousin, his wife, my niece, uncle and aunty) to wake up was around lunch time. Then my aunty and I went to those shoplots around Yishun area to look for job as there were like a few wedding boutiques. Then later on we went to this shopping mall called "IMM" (whatever that is) to try to search again.

As I asked and asked, they told me that they usually already had their own make-up artist so they probably wouldn't need one. I was disappointed as I knew it was really difficult and knowingly I was quite desparate but too bad! Then went to visit a few shops and bought a few stuff for my parents because their birthdays were going to come.

This was for both my parents! Holy?

The things that were sold in the shop.

Then after shopping around, went to have tea break and had a talk about Singapore jobs and stuff. Basically, everything was about jobs and living the life. So much more info I had known about Singapore until I was quite aware of the country itself. Last time, wasn't quite as good looking but now as I went, Singapore improved so much more and so clean!

The only thing is that there were too many restrictions but it is also good in a way. Sometimes rules could keep a person from being carried away. But honestly, I wouldn't mind living in Singapore because I know that it would be a much safer place to live in with benefits sometimes and at least with human rights.

When evening came, went to had dinner at Ming Sin Rd (I think) where they had seafood or something like that but then again I was too full since earlier I had tea break so I didn't ate much. All my relatives was there, with my nieces. The food also improved from the last time I was in Singapore. Taste much better now compared to last year I went. Don't mind going back again to taste more food!

After dinner, went to my cousin sister's house which was located in Novena, to have some family gathering. We had few drinks of gin and tonic which made me feel kind of uncomfortable cause I barely take that alcohol. Taste weird. YUCKS!

Anyway I had a good time chatting up with my cousins and playing with my nieces who are mostly kids age 9 below. Tell me about it :) Then my cousin sister was so nice to give me some money to have fun un Singapore since I still wasn't working. Very embarassing as I should be working and treating her instead. Nevermind! I owe her a dinner!

Then went back to Sembawang which was around 12:30am. I called Ken and asked if he wanted to meet up instead then we could go out or something. I wanted to meet him this night itself but my aunty was like "It's late better don't go out" so forget it. I guess I will take the chance the next day.

Day 3 - 28th June , 2009 - Sunday

8am I woke up amazingly with my late night sleeping and got ready to go to church which honestly I was forced to go cause I was quite lazy and tired but I had no choice. Better listen to the elders?
Anyway after church I went onto church for about 2 hours and then had "chicken rice balls" which was quite good with reasonable price I guess. The food costs $40 with extra rice, 6 people eating. A plate of whole chicken, 2 plates of vegetables and soup all together. Is it cheap? I don't know but I suppose so (exclusde currency exchange).

Then we decided to walk around in this place called "Vivo City" which was quite a beautiful and big shopping complex. I think it was a new shopping mall so I was like "WOW" everywhere I walked. The building looks really good with a good view at night where you could see across to Sentosa. I love the view so much! But I didn't took any pictures; my both digicams wasn't working so most of my pictures were taken by phone. WASTED! WTF! Oh well, I could always go back again and this time I must take pictures!

When my relatives were walking around, I told them I wanted to meet some friends , so I quickly left them and set off to meet Ken and my friend Derick. I was pretty nervous at first but then later on I was alright because it was my first time meeting Ken and finally I could get to meet him after knowing him for so long. Derick was a long time friend whom I had met some years back, so I felt normal when I met him but I was happy he came out to see me unlike others (I would not mention who).

Derick, Ken and I walked around and went shopping and he bought me a few things and a watch which I assume it was my birthday present even though it wasn't something expensive but he had the HEART to buy me 1.
Anyway we hung out until night time and then :) Well, the story continues....cause that's between Ken and I after that.

The things I bought (Ken paid HAHA!!) at a shop called "Daiso"

Cute?! Bought for my good friends as souveneir.

SHOPPING BILLS!!!! =.=

MY OWN SHOPPING!!

FOREVER 21

MNG

ZARA

Anyway, I left Singapore on the 29th June, 2009 aaround after lunch time and arrived K.L. in the evening. I had a great time and to much surprise I really, really love Singapore. I thought I wouldn't enjoy or would probably would have got a boring time but no! I had a very great wonderful time and I would love to go back there again!

I believe I will :)

LOVE IS COLOURFUL!

Sex in car?! BUSTED!!!

2009-06-26T11:24:00.015+08:00

THIS TEACHES YOU TO BETTER HAVE SEX AT HOME!! HAHAHAA!! :)

MOSQUITO SONG?! WTF SO LOL!

2009-06-17T14:42:00.003+08:00

DRAG ME TO HELL....what the hell?

2009-06-16T12:12:00.005+08:00

The story:

A capable woman named Christine Brown, who has a good job working in the bank, has a good boyfriend who loves her very much and supports her all the way even with her physcological problems (in his thoughts) and lives very much pretty well. Seems that she used to be a fat girl who works in the farm last time and who's mother was an alcoholic ever since her father had passed away (causes? unknown) but yet she took the courage to admit to her boyfriend's parents what her family background was and where she came from. Everything was perfect until she met this "weird" looking lady who asked for her help at the bank....

The curse: Lamia

Conclusion:

The movie was is not scary actually. Just the sounds in the cinema which makes you scared. Sometimes can be disgusting yet funny in a way. The way this write make it a little less scary but alot of sounds to make viewers scared! Very complicating. Don't understand most of it. Complicated also interesting. Why? Something about spells which probably most of us don't know about. I never understand the whole story but I'm not surprised there will be a part 2. Why? You watch the movie then you will knwo why I say this. I'll just sit back, relax and wait!

Moral of the story:

Never curse others.

Promise and do it.

Believe in what you see.

Be supportive.

Love and be strong for who you are.

Helping someone weird sometimes will do you good.

Clubs I Hangout

2009-06-16T08:14:00.006+08:00

Call me bad, naughty, playful whatever I don't really care. I club to?

exercise
meet people
practice my PR skills
my personal entertainment
check out what's new
release stress
I'm a music fan

Clubs I'm Attracted to:

Phuture - Zouk (KL)
Boiler Room (Sri Hartamas)
Quattro (KL)
Supper (Sri Hartamas)
Coco B. (Sunway)
Maison (KL)

My friends that I went with:

Moon,Bernard,Ah Hong,Sophia,John,Cee Ling,Kok Seong(few more unknown)

Love you guys! Bff!

Quote to This: "Enjoy life max. Time never waits for you."

Wedding Dinner

2009-06-16T04:52:00.010+08:00

Sunday - 14th June 2009

The wedding lunch was my mum's colleague's who got married. Went clubbing the night before and had to wake up at 7:30 a.m as the trip was to Segamat, Johor in order to arrive at the place by lunch time. Didn't sleep the whole night and was so tired! Look at my face...the pimples...OMG!? Tell me about it :).

The place was held in a restaurant I've never seen or been before, well looks nice and inside is really very big but then as you can see from the pictures below that it doesn't look as grand as those weddings you've seen in hotels. Not everybody could afford such grand weddings in hotels such as "J.W. Marriot" which costs a bomb so well just a simple wedding. The funniest part was is actually a very typical chinese wedding which they had karaoke session where people could actually get up on the stage and sing in front of everyone! Obviously people like me only sings in a room like "red box" or in the shower lol.

The Restaurant (don't know the name)

The first dish - not bad, quite nice to eat

The toilet which has a fan and the pipe which you have to manually push to flush (sorry for the blur pics, bare with me as I will try to buy a new camera soon!)

The wedding dinner was pretty boring but oh well it's wedding...what can you expect? :). Wedding is like one of the most beautiful things happening around the world I would never really want to miss! I was dead tired! Hopefully no more wedding lunch! =.=

BOILER ROOM - Heart This!

2009-06-15T19:32:00.011+08:00

PT Lot No. 4512, Jalan 23/70A, Hartamas
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Alcohols:

Label RM380 per bottle(2 for RM560)

Chivas RM380 per bottle(2 for RM560)

Absolut Vodka RM250 per bottle(2 for RM440)

Carlsberg RM116 per tower(2 for RM180)

Single Malt Whisky (Singleton, Macallan or Glenfiddich) RM420 (2 for RM760)

Comments:

Went club with me and friends on Saturday night last week. Had fun and was happy. Don't mind to visit again!! Nice decorations...not that bit nor small. I love the music! It's fooking awesome!!

Event: Are eu going?!

2009-06-13T13:09:00.004+08:00

Well, I'm going to check it ooooouttt!! Wanna know more about it?! HEHE! :D
Thanks to my blog pal *Boozie* for this info!!

My Game Buddies!!

2009-06-12T20:15:00.005+08:00

My Gunbound Friends:

Han - SG - iNoobHan
Dio - SG - sisterDio
Thomas - MY - inloveboy
Lily - SG - ImCuteBaby
Wyn - SG - ImSadBaby
Lin - SG - iMummyLin
Paul - AU
Jerlyn - SG - iBabyNerd
Frank - SG - Kingfirefly
Shu Hui - SG - B4byOrange
Mei Qi - SG - iClassical
Lucy - AU - s2BabyLychee
Lucy Liu - AU
Homin - AU - PenguinzFury
Fie - SG - MegaFie
Nick - MY - SiuLongBao (Met)
Jason - MY - Firelicious (Met)
Gerald Hu - SG - BabyFate (Met)
Chris - SG - SquishyWormy (Met)
Siu Ke - NL - EatMorePoo
Frank - NL
Francis - AU - oOoUnRealoOo
Leon - SG - SilentMode
Norris - SG - SuddenMode
Christopher - HU - Chobolicious
Froy - BO - Minifroy
Andrew - SG - woshibear
Xiang - SG - woshicar
Xiang - MY - woshixiang
Adrian - SG - IlOveUsoMuch
Cheryl - SG - yorkieX
Jason - NL - IIJasonII
Jason - MY - IIONOII
Gabby - AU - TouchMyMedal
CC - AU - TripleC1uNk
Siong - MY - sassyjenniz (Met)
Willie - AU - textme
Alia - MY - iluvff (Met)
Jess - SG - SoyaBeanCurd
Aaron - SG - MiloBeng (Meeting soon)
Bryan - SG - BryDivine
Teh - MY - TehAlienOnly (Met)
Bryan - MY - (Met)
Joe - SG -Scorpiochap
Agatha - SG - iBabyAgatha
John - SG - ILoveCookies
Ken - SG - P0rnStar
Yong - SG - LurbRain13
Shawn - SG
Hendra - AU - Dralicious
Xiang - MY - BabyNikki (Met)
Caris - SG - Cariston
Stan - SG - Pradaboy
Emannuel - SG - DeQuenceSaki
Jimmy - SG - Mosh
Callum - MY - iBlackCat

Alot more but I can't post up so many lol. These are the people I play with sometimes! These people really can make you laugh at time so I never regret playing this game. I love you guys! If there's ever a chance, we will be able to meet. I really met up some GB friends and honestly, to have more friends is better than enemies. Will update more on this! Thanks!
If you're interested in playing this game, here's the link- http://softnyx.net/

My Game Play: Gunbound

2009-06-12T18:35:00.006+08:00

That's Me! HAHHAHAHA! Cute right? Started this game like few 4-5 years ago and have been playing since then til' now, just that not as often now. It's not an "RPG" game unlike "WOW - warcraft", it's more of a multiplayer game whereby you get to play with people all around the world like UAE (Arab), SG (Singapore), MY(Malaysia), PH (Phillipines), AU (Australia) and so on. Ever since I played this game, I have met and known many friends from all around the world.

This game I have a guild (Members combined into 1 group for events and guild fight in the game). The guild name I've joined is named "Snow". Many members are in this guild who are friendly and mostly from Singapore. I've known them for few months now and we talk to each other mostly. My guild leader known as Lily from Singapore have known her since even before she created this guild but then I have not met her yet as I hope so soon! In our guild, there are quite a few of top players who play very well without using aimbot (programme that helps you aim without counting any formulas) and they are mostly involved in guild wars or events for guilds.

Hmm....for playing this game for so long, I'm not considered a high rank LOL! As I have quit this game like 2 times as I was busy working for my dad, so no choice then I continued as I was bored and had nothing much to do. I don't use aimbot, I play by "feel" or sometimes use formula. Honestly, is good to train up my mathematics. Some other people using more complicated formulas. Mine's easier as sometimes could be quite tiring if count too much. I usually spend like 10-16 hours a day just to play this game but now I don't. I refrain myself from playing thaaaaaaaaaat long! Hurts the eyes and bad for the backbone.

One of the maps in Gunbound

Before entering map

Where I met Ken

Movie: Angels and Demons

2009-06-09T05:26:00.007+08:00

Was watching this movie with my good friend...I so totally don't understand the whole thingy lol kind of complicated and sad at the same time...Anyway it's not so bad. It's somewha like the movie "Constatine" (very good movie). This is interesting as well. At first it was kind of boring and when it got to the end, became much more interesting with its unsolved mystery and search for the actual killer itself. Hmm...not bad not bad!! The next movie I can't wait to watch is "Drag me to hell" which I would be watching next week with a few of my friends. Want to know more? Don't forget to keep yourself updated he he!

Anyone can give me a rough idea about this whole movie?? Thanks :D

(P/S: Anybody want to join IKEA CONTEST?? Please visit http://www.ikea.com.my/store-theme/2009/storage/?s=pop,contest)

What about life?

2009-05-30T19:46:00.010+08:00

What about life?

Life goes on as such:

You're a baby, you cry and depend on your parents

You're a teenager, you learn how to stop crying and still depending on parents

You're an adult, you don't cry but suffer in pain

You're of old age, you need to depend on your children

See the life cycle? I guess you can.

What's next after this cycle? People's build-up attitude:

Don't know why some people like to blame the parents for their child's attitude disorder. I mean everybody have their inner attitude mostly through up bringing, environment or maybe the problem of not understandind their ownself or not knowing how to solve problems instead, by avoiding it. I truly understand sometimes is also parents fault of not trying to understand the correct way to teach their children. Is that why we always weird or people with different types of attitudes. Some can't take it, either kill themselves or end up being a phsycopath (mental problem).

There are different types of attitude:

Selfish - why can't they share sometimes?

Posessive - too involve with emotions and can't control oneself

optimistic - too positive about everything

perfectionist - everything must be perfect no matter what

weird - do things normal people don't do

no common sense - don't talk logically

only swearing no talking - very rude, literally just think wat comes out of the mouth

loves to fight - fight first then only talk, by the time it's too late

love to compare - compares about everything/everyone

overly chinese mentality - super conservative and not open to changes in life
proud - showing off what they have that people can't have

make other people sad - enjoys the feeling of people being hurt

Egoist - Face more important than everything

There are many more. All these I came up with is not from online, is created by me through out my years of living in this place. These people I have came across with sometimes and I seriously until now don't know how to deal with it which my own way would be dealing it with my uncontrollable emotions and temper. Funny, I'm surrounded by these kind of attitudes and I'm not surprised, I'm actually one of those lol. Can anyone tell me about what's life all about cause until today I still don't understand up til' the extend I don't intend to stay in this world any longer.

I am like really sad today. Like I said I'm lucky for what I own but hate what I envy. Maybe that's what make me having bad temper, confused thoughts and uncontrolled emotions. I think I'm letting my emotions take control over me at this point of view.

First of all, my mum yelled at me early in the morning not knowing I had only 4 hours of sleep since last night and I don't blame her for my not sleeping hours but still I really hate it when someone scold me early in the morning for nothing so important to yell about.

Secondly, my bf had to piss me off, cause I thought he wanted to talk to me but ended up he played with his friends "mahjong" until early in the morning. Not that I don't let him go out but he didn't let me know? I mean as a couple, it's always best to INFORM so you don't let the other party worry. Better than I didn't care at all. Like my friends who knew me better always told me, maybe I do control my bf's alot until they can't take it they runaway. I don't this agree at this point of view. Or maybe it's my fault to love him so much at such early stage cause I think it's too fast to love so deeply, it may lead to fights and true enough it did.

I was on the verge of breaking up with my bf but then again I think I'm getting bored of breaking up and at the same time. Don't want to think so much about us anymore. I am the only 1 doing the thinking, stressing and everything, in the end what happens? Do I get anything from it? No lol probably another lesson to learn.

Don't know maybe I should learn to control my temper and emotions. Nah! Maybe I should just let our relationship be, don't want to fuss about it anymore. Too lazy to bother, I'm only hurting myself. My friends said is true "I care too much", so the best is just let it be. If we are meant to be, if we're not then we're not.

Lastly, my good friend called me up ask me to "yam cha". Knowing I was kind of "emo", I told her I would let her know later as might want to rest and write my blog at home. Then she just shut me off by saying "you want to come, come if not don't come at all". I was so pissed off I cried badly until my nose and my face went all red.

I've been crying for few times already, just keeping every sadness within me. That's why I said when you're an adult, you suffer in pain. I really envy those poor people who has no money but yet as they struggle to survive, they still can endure happiness. But why I can't?

I'm quite lucky to not work YET, have almost everything I want and my mum has give in to me alot ever since I failed so many colleges. I won't not admit, I also got ATTITUDE! :) But then I'm mostly there for people when I'm sad but not even 1 person could really be there for me when I'm sad since I'm surrounded by weird people. Nonetheless, my friends do cheer me up but who really understands me?

When can I be happy? When can I have the feeling of having something people don't have? (I'm talking about things you can never buy with money).

Comes to the extend if anybody want my life please take it cause it's not worth to me anymore. All the pain, the sufferings, the good of helping people but not appreciated or when you love someone you end up finding out you will never have destiny with anyone. What for? Why suffer so much? I may have nice clothes, bags, car, room and everything in my life but 1 bit of happiness would change my perception worth living.

Thank goodness I succeed in being a make up artist although I'm lazy but who's not? I use my brains and heart as well as determination. What others say I don't give a shit. Anyway, I can take pain only a period of time same goes for everyone else. Once the pain is over its limits then it's time to say goodbye to me :). I'm not scaring anybody or anything, everything has limits, don't over do it once it's been pushed to hard then by the time you want to save, it's too late.

So to people out there, appreciate and treasure while the person is still alive. It's normal to have emotions, temper or very repulsive anger but just learn not too push to hard at it. Not everyday you will find someone who would talk to you, share with you things about life, experiences of what they've gone through and also their love (most important).

Once gone will be gone forever.

If you know anything more about life, don't hesitate to write a comment. Thanks.
Whatever I wrote today was not copied from any online website, it's all on my own perception. What you agree or disagree, please tell me. I don't want anybody to feel offended as this is an open blog so please understand. Don't blame me if I'm too emotional cause I suffer from depression illness before but I'm much better now. So those readers out there, I really need your opinion. Thanks!

I'm a standout in Life

2009-05-21T23:25:00.004+08:00

WHY or HOW am I a standout in life? (doesn't matter if people agree or don't I'm who I am).

This is why.

Introduction:

Why is my blog name "Lucky What I Own, Hate what I envy"?

"Lucky what I own" means that I'm quite a lucky person compared to those aren't lucky as I am; always have been. I'm lucky as I have been provided by many things in my whole life (e.g. college fees and beautiful house) which has been sacrificed by my parents hard working attitude. I'd never forget that and I would treasure it.

"Hate what I envy" (well don't put it seriously. Not like REALLY hate. Just technically) means in a way, I might have what I have right now, but yet I'm also still envy of those who owns better things than I do. Besides hating, I do admire them as well cause maybe they deserve to have them. I have some rich friends and I'm happy too for what they have. Example, I envy those who as parents who aren't divorced. Although, mine is but I'm glad my parents still love me and have given their full responsibility as a parent and I thank them for that.

MY BLOG:

My blog is more about "personal life". I talked about the most things that happened or what I came across with in my life. I don't write things of which it might be too personal; only a mere information about might life and what I do or have been doing. I have been thinking about my blog name for few weeks and this blog name was the best I could think of. I had been blogging for many years now, just that I stopped from time to time. But since I have the time now, I'm devoting my time to blogging at the moment and even if I don't have the time I will still try to blog. I first started blogging few years ago in the forum "friendster" but I closed my first account and it was all gone.
Later, I found out about "blogger spot" and decided to go on with this blog which I find it really amazing of how much you can do with it. I could write almost about everything. I realize when I was younger that besides doing courses like Advertising, I'm a better way of expressing my feelings and thought through writing than talking. Don't know how far my imagination is or how creative I am but I don't stop trying. I know nothing about blogging.

Thanks to "Blogspot", I managed to learn blogging and HTML all on my own (knowing my skills in computering sucks!).

5 ways of telling what makes me a standout in life?

1. Straight-forward/Fierce with reasons behind it/Friends are important

I like to say things straight forwardly but not too straight. things that I don't like or not happy with I would just say it out. Sometimes if it is things which are really important, I would think it through. Whenever I get mad or filled with anger, I would tend to throw things and fight but then I must give myself a good reason in order to be that angry.
To me, if you're helping a friend to change their attitude or something, don't talk behind their back. Just go straight to them and tell it to their face whether they like it or not cause for me, it's for their own good. Good friends will always be there to support and try to help you in all sorts of manner and ways. Only to good friends like REALLY good, I would sacrifice my time or even my life for them because I know they deserve it better than I do. I would hope that we would remain best friends forever without hesitation.

2. Admitting I'm growing older but will never stop learning.

Although I have been through many colleges without a diploma but yet I don't fail to remember what I've learned from each of every college I've been to. I'm glad I have picked up knowledge from what I've learnt. But finally, managed to graduate from 1 college. I will never stop learning even though I'm considered at a mature age!! Knowledge is what I want and the more I have, the more I'm contented.

3. Use my brains. Work smart not hard.

Many things in life I don't know about and nobody teaches me but I'm willing to be a dumbass to learn what I don't know about. Who knows? Maybe you will be the one ending up being dumb not me. You see, I learn form the best :). Example would be blogging. I know nuts about blogging! I'd just just write, write and write but little did I know, by blogging also I could get to know more friends. That's why I couldn't live without the internet. Because thanks to the internet my brains got open wider.

4. Cam-whoring

I don't think I'm pretty but I'm QUITE vain. Whenever I'm bored, I'd take pictures of my ownself. I do love taking other pictures but I take mine mostly. I am not afraid to admit who I am or what kindda person I am. Don't worry, I'm not shy to admit things that I'm doing. Well, it's life!? Appreciate what you have and treaasure it while you can. You don't grow young forever!! (unless you have some young longevity potion?)

5. Be myself

I will never change just cause somebody thinks I'm a slut or whatever. I am who I am. I swear (I sweared alot last time but I changed. I want to be a LADY :)), quite a rough person, act like a guy sometimes, play guys games (Billard) and I can sit like a guy at times =.=. Of course in life certain things should change but don't change for the sake of someone else. Change for YOURSELF. I believe that there's always chance for people to change unless they really think their so GOOD with themselves then I don't give a shit. Nothing can make me change not even my parents because I can only train who I am or what I want to become in the end of the day. I hate FAKERS (people with 2 personalities in 1 body).
It's ME! ME! and ME! NOTHING CAN CHANGE FOR WHO I AM.

LAST WORDS:

Well, 5 reasons how am i a standout in life. I wouldn't say I'm the only standout. I'm like 1 of the standout people around the world. Too many people on earth!? I'm just writing to show what makes me a standout amongst the rest of the people here on earth. Maybe there are others but seriously these OTHERS are really hard to find. Hard to find the people who actually has the same character/personality as you are. If I ever would find these people, I would treasure them always in my heart.

Dedicated to Fuck up Singaporeans

2009-05-15T18:27:00.008+08:00

Singaporeans in comparison with Malaysians?

What can I say about them?

(In Singapore, Dover Court School)

(International College in Singapore)

ME:

I've been living in Singapore since I was 9 to 14 but then I've been to Singapore few times after that. My parents were divorced so i went to live in Singapore for awhile but I went to an international school not just any school in Singapore. My relatives (most of them) lives in Singapore who is a citizen there. So, I do visit from time to time.

What RIGHT do I have to say about you guys? Seriously, I got no RIGHT at all to say about Singaporeans but I have a mouth so I'm sorry can't help it. Thanks to those who had pissed me off and force me to say what I don't want to say.

Honestly, whatever I say, I'm just saying from what I SEE. I don't simply say things based on of what's not true. I'm writing based on those who said things to me that hurts from Singapore. Even though my online friends are Singaporeans and so is my boyfriend. But I want to write it openly so everyone who read this blog knows what I have been seeing for few years now. Especially those who talked to me like a fuck up from my game that I had been playing.

MY OPINION:

Why does Singaporeans always been called "Kiasu or Kiasi". Well I don't really know what it means but I know Singaporeans have weird attitude but in certain ways. Our lifestyles are totally different and the way we live our lives. We enjoy much. Do you?

I don't really know why most people who are from Singapore just loves to look down on Malaysians? I've heard some of my friends talk about it and actually saw with my own eyes that it does happens. Singaporeans love to think that Malaysians are poor just cause our currency are lower than theirs. I didn't know you guys judge people based on the currency exchange LMAO!

Some loves to just talk without any sense, probably just care for themselves and think their so great. Those of who are rich are even worse. It's like as if you must obey to them or some shit! Well, screw that!

Some even think their english is so good or better than any other people. I don't deny, Singapore's english is good but not like EXCELLENT? Sinagapore is famous for? "Singlish". Even my english is not that good compared to many out there whom I don't know but why think you're PERFECT when you're NOT?

Singaporeans loves to think their super rich, see that's why they tend to look down at other people like people from Malaysia? The thing about it is like doesn't mean you own a "mansion" in Singapore, it makes you "richest dude ever". I mean take a look at your land? Look at how small it is on the map. Looks more like a tiny fly. When you're rich, you're really rich and when you're poor, you're really poor. You don't have much land and you guys have many condominiums or "HDB flats". We have many houses whethere its small, big, medium. Why? Cause we got heaps of land fo sure.

Sometimes Singaporeans should open their eyes and SEE for themselves who they really are and if you could survive even if the economy SUCKS?

Don't forget that Malaysians have many ways to survive and we will never starve. No matter how we could manage to survive the economy and the excomy will still be standing even though it's on a breakdown basis. Singapore is not a bad country but the people make it look so bad. I mean, besides STRICT I can't see anything else in Singapore that is rather bad. I know Malaysia is worse than Singapore in many ways. Singaporeans should learn not to be so "full of themselves".

Singapore Boys:

They probably care for themselves. Some very "ah beng" (not like Malaysia don't have; got also). Some will love a girl very much, like she's the only girl in Singapore. Some would just not bother about their girlfriends and look for another? (It happens in every country). The younger boys talk mostly without thinking straight where else the older boys would try their best to protect you as much as they can (e.g. "Don't smoke too much"). I don't like the way they talk, the way they think and the way they act when they're outside of home. They funny sometimes but can also be a real pain in the ass.

Singaporean guys mostly have the same chinese names, a few unique ones and most of them have like really small eyes. When I was in Singapore, I swear I barely saw any guys with BIG eyes LOL! Most of them are like thin, with no muscles but they got quite good skin. I think? I wonder do they go to gym? Like do they workout or just treat having sex as their exercise? (Geylang). They love to hangout in such places like below an HDB Flat? Just chill and smoke there and talk cock. I don't know but I don't think Singapore guys really care about their girlfriends even if they do, they care too much.

They dress up and style their hair each time they go out. In fact, I've never failed to see few guys in Singapore dressed like sloppily. Maybe they would love to look good which is what I like about them. They're not sloppy and they make sure they look good each time they go out. They love to follow what's in the TREND. Some probably into brands but some don't. Those that does really has great style.

Singapore Girls:

They are not that friendly(not all). Their kindda proud of what they have. They don't check things out first before saying things. They just do what of how they FEEL. They are quite fierce lol. I have seen a few girls who are from Singapore seriously very fierce even I'm afraid.

Some are really bitchy, like they only talk to boys and everything is about boys (that's what people told me). Some of them are like super materialitic and when you meet them in clubs, you can DREAM that they would talk to you. They would love you if you have heaps of cash cause that's all they want from you (some singapore guy friend told me).

They all also mostly have small rounded eyes and the way they dress is pretty cute. They have somewhat like "Taiwan Fashion" dressing which I think at least is better than some of who are "ah lian".

Well, I won't want to talk much about girls of Singapore cause I'm a girl myself and I always help girls so, this is all I would say about them.

CONCLUSION:

Singaporeans takes water from us Malaysians. There are heaps of Malaysians who could afford to go to Australia and actually spend money like water. The currecy from MY to AUS is much more expensive than in Singapore. Alot of cars we have are Mercedes, BMW and sports car. But not many in Singapore. Well, if you don't think so then please don't hesitate to prove to me that Singapore has many sport car gathering and shit.

Malaysians would spend most of their money and time on cars for guys and girls could really shop til' the credit card burst. We can relax most of the time and not work but I don't think Singaporeans can. Never underestimate the people outside of your country, don't just based on currency, politics, whatsoever. You may never know who you will be begging to next time?

Anyway, all in all Singaporeans are still humans. There always nice people in Singapore like my online friends where I had known them from a game. We all actually do the same things just that we act in different situations. Our behaviours different. We have Malays control over us but Singapore mostly Chinese which is good. The only things Singaporeans should change is not to really look down upon those of whom are not from Singapore.

Besides that, I really love going to Singapore just can't stand it with so many RULES! Other than that is all good. Just that not as much nightlife as us? The only place I haven't check out are the CLUBS in Singapore. The shopping is alright like the one I like to go to called "Takashimaya". Hmm...famous isn't it. I think there's gonna be a new shopping mall opening in Singapore. Can't wait to go there! Honestly, Singapore's fashion is way better than Malaysia. It's time I spend my money in Singapore :).

Singapore wait for meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

BRING ME ANYONE?! Thanks!!

MUST READ THIS!!

2009-05-14T21:51:00.009+08:00

Love is kind yet complicated
Love is unexplainable also hard to bare with
To learn with care and becareful when its in use
Obstacles were always a trouble to stop love from happening

Alomg the way, we never noticed
Unable to unlock the meaning of love
We knew it but never took action
Therefore, in our hearts we both endure pain

Our love was not a highway
There was always left and right
What I look upon you then, was fear
Our feelings uncertain and barely recognized

As time goes by...
We managed to overcome left and right turns
When we both felt each other, we found each other with amazement
Once unlocked the key of love, we were meant to be only in dreams
Now it's HOPE that we pray for

HOPE and FAITH we rephrase
To share our love in within, nothing is impossible
Happy memories always remembered
No matter what happens, memories remains
Never look back but towards the future
Deeply we sail along the path to reach out to faith
INFINITY is the word we must try to keep as our goal to succeed for our future

2 faithful hearts, 2 minds, 2 souls
Passionate feelings that comes along with wonder happiness
Comes right through from the HEART
Together we walk this journey to fight our love and faith for each other

ONE OPPORTUNITY. ONE LIFETIME. ONE REAL LOVE.
Believe it. Trust it. Feel it.
(Actions stronger than words. Then you will see how strong love can be)

MY BESTEST FRIENDS (Moon & Jeannie)

When I was born, I didn't expect much
All I wanted was a group of lovely people surrounding me
Lovely people who could share their love with me
Who isn't selfish, not a hypocrite and a backstabber

Real friends would sacrifice for you
Will be there for you when you're in NEED
Willing to help you whole heartedly
Never jealous and always supportive

Then came along these gifted people
Who makes me laugh all day long
Sharing their experiences with me; also their love
Getting together every moment with laughter
Smoking away our lungs
When die we die together, when we live we live forever

I dedicate this written words to you
Who had share your love and time for me
With my deepest heart
I appreciate you through out eternity
Will never forget how you have been there for me
Supporting me the times I was down

Without you, I was a nobody
With you, I'm someone
You truly deserve my heart, I love you bitches and I always will

Bitches for life we will be
Nothing can change that
Together we live, together we die
Love to the max from me, thanks for everything!

DUNHILL FOREVER!!!

TO FUCKERS, BACKSTABBERS, RAPIST, HYPOCRITES, RETARDS, PERVS!

Ignorance is incurable in you
Laughs at everything
Insanity follows you without a cure
Your conscience fully retarded
Think you're a GOD but you're an empty peanut
Incapable of being sane who only is afraid of your own
Jealous of those with pride, fame and credits

Envy forever as you can't see the future as you're blinded by insanity
Only sharing devilish thoughts of those who suffer from abnormality
Retarded mentality which you never fail to have cause you build it on your own
Sick mind and painful feelings makes you feel even more excited

The only concern of yours is being happy of what's not
Abnormality is the only source of life you look towards
The only person you pray to is something that doesn't even exist
Lastly, you enjoy being an asshole cause you're born with it

My piece of advice (seriously) :
1. Please remain retarded, less sanity
2. Do not spread to those of who are sane
3. Keep your disease to yourself
4. Envy forever, you may NEVER be like ME
5. Light a lighter at the gas station with you standing in the middle of it!

SEX INPUT - edeucation

2009-05-14T02:56:00.005+08:00

What is sex?
In biology, sex is a process of combining and mixing genetic traits, often resulting in the specialization of organisms into male and female types (or sexes). Sexual reproduction involves combining specialized cells (gametes) to form offspring that inherit traits from both parents. Gametes can be identical in form and function, but in many cases an asymmetry has evolved such that two sex-specific types of gametes.

In my terms, SEX, Fucking and love-making is different.
Sex = Guy and Girl 1 room. See you again!
Fucking = Guy and Girl, anyplace, anytime. Money on the table.
Love-making = Passionate...want more!

Sometimes, a person has sex, whether it’s vaginal, oral or anal, and then decides that it was a bad decision. They regret having sex and want to stop. They want to sort of “not count” those sexual experiences and reclaim their virginity. This is called “secondary virginity.” They might decide that, after not having sex for a certain period of time, they’ll consider themselves a virgin again.

In my terms:
Vaginal = GoodLicking (Guy's job)
Oral = Includes everything (Teamwork)
Anal = Fuckin' disgusting! (For "lack of vagina's" guys)

In other cases, a person – guy or girl – might have been raped or abused and so they were robbed of the right to make this important decision for themselves. Since they were forced to have sex, then it doesn’t really count and they consider themselves virgins until they make the choice to have sex with someone they like or love. This works for a lot of people. And that’s good. But, it’s also important to count any sexual experiences you’ve had (consenting or not) as part of your sexual history. Your risk of exposure to disease depends on whether you’ve had sex. If you have been exposed to sexually transmitted infections, then you need to protect yourselves and any future partners from infection.

In my terms:
Raped = Go crazy and straight to mental hospital to cure "rape hallucination"
Forced on = Hate guys forever...probably want to kill every guy who touches her
Abused = Goes retarded and starts whacking whoever they see on the road

CONDOMS(DUREX - Strong and Durable :))

First, what’s a condom?
It’s a sheath of thin rubber, plastic, or animal tissue that a male wears on his penis during oral. Condom prevents transmission of other bodily fluids, like blood or vaginal fluids. Anyone can buy condoms at a drugstore or supermarket. When used properly each and every time, latex condoms are 98-percent effective at preventing pregnancy. But the reality is that not everybody uses condoms properly every time. This brings the effectiveness rate down to 85 percent. Latex condoms are also effective at preventing the spread of STDs, including HIV and gonorrhea.

In my terms:

Condoms are rubbers to block the "sausage" from penetrating into the "rathole."
(Not really SATISFYING but "better be safe than sorry")

DON'T BE RETARDS LIKE THEM!! :)

Jim and Stacey are high school seniors who’ve been dating for a year. After talking it over, they decide they are mature and careful enough to have sex. Since they know that having unprotected sex can lead to unplanned pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases (STDs), they plan to use protection. So, they go to their local drugstore and head to the condom section.
Jim and Stacey thought that they could just go the condom section, grab a box of Trojans, and go home. But what they found startled them—from floor to ceiling were dozens of multicolored boxes of different types of condoms: latex, sheepskin, spermicidal, flavored! They didn’t have a clue which condom to pick out. They went home in a daze, without purchasing any condoms.

It’s important to know which type of condom is right for you, and how to use condoms correctly.

Condoms are made of three different materials:

1. Latex
A kind of rubber. Latex is the most common and effective type of condom to prevent pregnancy and STD transmission.

2. Polyurethane
A type of plastic. Polyurethane condoms are generally used by people who are allergic to latex.
But beware! Polyurethane is not as flexible as latex, so a polyurethane condom can slip off more easily during intercourse. (<--LMAO)

3.Natural skin (lambskin)
These condoms are effective at preventing pregnancy, but not STD transmission.
WHY?
Natural skin condoms contain natural pores that are larger than many STDs, such as HIV, and smaller viruses can pass through the pores of the condom.

KNOW YOUR TYPES!! (Wet vs. DRY)
Some condoms come with lubrication. Lubricated condoms are known as “wet” condoms.
Non-lubricated condoms are known as “dry” condoms.

A) Lubricated condoms help prevent condom breakage. The extra fluid on the condom may make intercourse feel more comfortable or more enjoyable. Some condoms are lubricated with nonoxynol-9, a spermicide that kills sperm. But if a person uses a condom with spermicide on it and notices an itching or burning sensation, that person should stop using it, because he or she may be allergic to spermicide.

B) When adding lubrication to a dry latex condom, only water-based—not oil-based—lubrication should be used. Oil and latex do not mix. Never put baby oil, Vaseline, or anything made with oil on a latex condom, because it may eat a hole through the latex. There are lubricants made with water that are safe for condoms.

C) K-Y Jelly or AstroGlide are safe lubricants for condoms.

D) Novelty condoms [like glow-in-the-dark ones]. Novelty condoms are for fun only and should not be used for protection against pregnancy or STDs.

E) As with any type of condom, it’s important to read the label to make sure the government approves the condom for use against unplanned pregnancy and STDs. It’s important to check the expiration date.

STAY EDUCATED!
Condom use is extremely important for teens that are having sex. Get the facts about condoms, and practice safer sex each and every time! (<--LOL)
The over all meaning of this subject means:

a) Sex is GOOD FEEL

b) Never stop until you drop!

c) Plastic bags a replacable if emergency horny alert!

d) Becareful who you have "exercise" with. You may not know what you're getting into

e) Watch more

f) Wanna lose weight? "Exercise" often :)

g) Never save your money when it comes to love-making

h) Try it. Feel it. Taste it. Live with it!

LIVE LIFE THE FULLEST!!!
That's enough for tonight. You know you love me!

Bored...are u?

2009-05-13T01:20:00.010+08:00

Woke up around 2 something I think? Don't know why my whole body felt so sore. I lay on my bed for about another 10 min then I woke up brush my teeth. Went to the fridge..that's what I usually do when I just woke up. You know why? FOOD hAHA!! :) Apparently, to my surprise my fridge is empty OMG!! How can this be? My house has always been fridge-FULL but now is all gone. In fact, I don't even remember who's stomach it went to. My mum's or me? I think my brains getting SLOWED down =/. I ate a bar of white chocolate that my mum bought from Russia recently off her trip. Then got bored of being on my computer for once so I sat in the living room and watched a DVD since I borrowed heaps from muh dad! <3

Later on, I exercised. Want to knwo how I exercise? ROFL! I just danced like how I danced in clubs and that's it. Well, I'm not sure if it's working but looks like my boobs are smaller? I don't know I ASSUME so. Got so bored at home and knowing I hate going out in the afternoons. Err...I will melt? Not to say I'm fussy or somethin' just hate the sun. When evening came, went out shopping with Mummy. Had dinner in 1utama which costs us like RM80+ just for so little ingredients! Nevermind it's 1utama, what you expect right? then went to buy groceries. FRIDGE OUT OF FOOD <-- VVIP! And came home stoned. That's about it.

Hmm...wait! I haven't finished blogging...there's more but in the next post! Want to read an interesting post? Stay tuned.

This is Jasmine Tea with sea cucumber, jelly and coconut jelly.

Taste OK...but I didn't like the jelly...it looks gross =.=

My favourite breakfast cereal! <3>

One of the things I bought at Jusco :)

Ferrero Rocher from my mum's friends.

Wow! So generous :D

Mother's Day

2009-05-10T20:23:00.005+08:00

First of all I would love to wish my mum "Happy Mother's Day."

To the rest of the Mum's out there, I would like to wish you all "Happy Mother's Day."

The clip shown above is just a pre-present for my mum (I sent to her e-mail). I don't believe in buying things for my mum. I PREFER making things for her, I only buy things like when I don't have the time. I would use the skills I have to design for her something cause at least I made it with effort. When you buy things, you don't need much effort. Well, that's what I think. I'm not saying you shouldn't buy for your mum a pressie but I don't really prefer that way.

My mum? She might be a little grumpy from time to time but I guess she has too much stress from ME and her work lol. She has done so much things and sacrifice her time for me. Now come to think of it, I feel sad to see myself rotting away while she's putting so much hope on me. My mum is really a "sporting" mum and pretty open-minded. She's funny too especially whenever I'm sleeping, she would just wake me up and then life my covers to show me her "line dancing" (it looks awkward sHH!! Don't tell her o.O).

Although I have failed to complete 4 colleges through out my whole life but yet she still supports me. I cry sometimes seeing her cause I feel that I've hurt her so bad and I don't know how to mend her broken heart. The only thing I could is to be successful. She doesn't understand me sometimes. I mean I look like I don't care but actually I do and I love her but I jsut don't know how to show it. All I know is, she's really a great mum and I'm so lucky to have her cause if it's not for her, I wouldn't be living a life full of luxurious things around me.

I love my mum and nothing nor anyone can change that.

I feel abit weird. She went out with her friends to eat =.=! Is it me? Or it's really happening? Maybe she knows I don't have the CASH to bring her out dinner so might as well go out with her friends? The new TREND I guess? Mom's going out to celebrate amongst other moms. But I can't say that because my friends are with their mum's =.+! Oh well....it's her decision as it's her day! Not only that, she brought her friends to sorta VISIT our house lol! Honestly, hadn't happened before my whole 25 years of life but I guess it's somethin' different? =] To me, so as long she's happy then it's all good. It's kindda funny also cause I always complain to my friends about my mum and they will say "You're lucky to have such mom" and I will say after all the complaining "Yea, I know". I'm just so grateful for all the things she's done for me.

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE MY MUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help my friend do her portfolio...guess who =p

2009-05-09T19:43:00.005+08:00

Pictures of karaoke (cam whoring)!

2009-05-09T19:23:00.008+08:00

Went to play CS at Damasara Jaya with my gunbound friend Jason(Firelicious). Was so bored, so decided to drop by the lan cafe and play some rounds of CS. Knowing that I so suck in it =.= it's okay I still tried!! Can you gues how many hits and how many times I died? No? Let me tell you. I actually killed less than 20 opponents and died like more than 30 times. ROFL! That's how noob I am but I don't play everyday anyway so I don't intend to be a PRO. Later on, send Jason home cause he had dinner at around 6pm and I had no dinner. I don't know what to eat cause my home right now is FOODLESS :). Just went grocery shopping like last 2 weeks ago and is all gone. I'm a PIG? no more like buffalo. I'm a FOOD LOVER.

But it's so sad as I'm on a diet. I had a bet with my childhood friend that I could prove to him I was going to be the HOTTEST chick HE seen (only him lol). Come to this subject. Looks like I'm trying really very hard and it's gonna be hard for me cause I'm such a PIG? How to lose weight in like a month?! Oh wells, it is good for me also =.=. I have trying to lift "dumb bells" almost everyday to try and lose the BABY FAT off my arms. Hmm...anybody can give me any idea how to lose weight in a month like really quick? Please do let me know lol! I'm so not an exercise person. With my smoking attitude, I believe my STAMINA is very low like 40/100 so yeah it's gonna be soooooooooooooo tough :(. Nevermind I won't give up so I can win my bet! HAHAHAHA!!! Wish me good luck peepz!

Fucking funny shit!

2009-05-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

Online Relationships

2009-05-08T21:11:00.011+08:00

"The difference between online relationship is that you can't reach out to the person when you're in need of that person. Some things are unexplainable but yet it really happens. Heard of any internet relationship turn to reality before? I'm not wrong. Trust Me. One fo them is me. Like I have written before, most of my relationships started from online. Can't believe it? Believe it."

You can say it is dumb or I'm dumb. I mean you can always find somebody in real life why online? Nothing is impossible. Comparing to real life, it's the same thing that you do, just that the relationship is all based only through the net. Doesn't mean you HAVE to know somebody in real life in order to be together. There are always other people outside the other part of the world. Everybody have different styles to how they would love to know or be with a person.

Of course when you know a person through the net, you don't know REALLY who or how the person is. But it takes a lot of patience, time and effort. I choose to have online relationships because in my own opinion, I believe that sometimes is always good to try different things in life, rather than the same things that happen all the time. Even though I know it is always best to stay on the safe side. To me, honestly there's no fucking difference because whether online or I know some guy through my friends is the same. The guys end up to be the fucking same. So I rather be different. Like I said I can't really explain. Obviously, I wouldn't go as far as MARRYING through the net. That's pretty gay and pathetic! ( No offence to those who really did). I just date guys whom I know through the net and be with them in real life.

Example: Getting introduced to a friend's friend. Get to know each other for sometime then only get together. (Why must we always follow this way? Can't things change in life? People change in a matter of time. So why not try something else?)

Although I do like dating somebody whom I know online, but yet there's always disadvantages to it. The thing I like about online dating is that you have more freedom. It's more interesting cause it would take you awhile before you could tell what kind of person the person is online. Probably take months! You get to miss each other from time to time when you're not communicating through the net and you will always want to talk to the person.

But what I don't like is that when you need the person to be there for you, they just can't be there for you at times. They can't hug or kiss you or tell you at your face how much they lvoe you. You can't see their love through the net. All you can do is TRY to feel. You take a very high risk of hurting your own feelings (if you over think).
So before you get yourself involve in all this relationships, be sure you can take it. Well I have my fair share of sadness and tears. But it's no difference cause the guys I knew not from the net were also the same so yeah. You wouldn't know what he/she is doing unless both parties could really trust each other that much.

If you ask me, how can I like somebody through the net? I can't explain HOW but I can tell my experience. It is something like what happens in real life. You guys be with each other almost everyday, doing the same things, always making each other happy. From there, feelings start to built. But then again, it will be so sad as you might just want to kiss him/her but you can't cause the person's too far away. Not like you can reach out to them.
It's very difficult to be in this kind of relationship. You will have this painful feelings even though you ASSUME he/she loves you. You need to have lots of patience as well as understanding and not to over think cause that can cause arguments amongst each other. The only communication to this relationship would be a webcam and a microphone. Phone communication is possible but then got to look out for the bills!

When I love him, I actually do and I would wait until the time we get to meet each other, sit down and share our moments with each other or the times that we weren't talking to each other or something like that. Go places have fun and spend time together in REAL. Each time I have this kind of relationships, it would end up being a failure. Maybe cause sometimes I think too much? Or maybe I worry about what he's doing.
I mean in real life at least you can check on the person but online you can't. All you can do is just sit at home and wait until he replies you. Most of the time you will miss him. Why would I say it is hard and really sad? When you miss him sometimes, you just can't think of what to do besides sitting there and wait for him to come home to talk to you. And the worse part is you try not to text him because texting him too many times when he's out could be pretty annoying (you don't want him being afraid of you; you gotta keep the impression good. So that the when you guys meet each other, the situation wouldn't be awkard).

You see, it's like this.

First -start dating online and build relationship with each other

Second -understand each other better and be patience

Third -turning the relationship to reality by meeting up

Fourth -be sure he/she is the one for you

Lastly -Never regret what you choose (If you choose to really be with the person then be)

All I want to say is that anything is possible; it only depends if YOU want to make it happen. It doesn't matter from which country both parties are at. If you TRULY love each other then other than that is not a problem at all. Just bare with it cause who knows? You might find the one you've been waiting for your whole life....

XOXOXO

My self-made fingernails =]

2009-05-07T20:52:00.008+08:00

I just loooooooooooove having to make my own fake nails. You see, certain things you don't have to always go to the nail shop and spend heaps of money and time onto your nails. Just DIY! I have always love doing nails ever since I was quite young. I always envy people's nails cause some girls, their nails so pretty and long. Mine is like ewww? Cause I have really weak nails so it kindda breaks each time it grows a little bit longer. And I have a very bad habit of biting my nails LOL! Shhhhh! (fuck I disclose my own bad habit =.=).

Anyway, it's not very hard. Just buy any fake nails from nail shop then buy the tools (get them from shops like "Guardian or watsons" or Sungai Wang as they sell many there and cheap!) and then start from there! It's as easy as that.

But please do remind yourself that of course, it is not as beautiful as those "Pro's" but it's simple quick and easy. These fake nails could last approximately around 2 weeks the most IF you're not a rough person or if you do any housework (I don't really do housework, so it's all good :D). Take care of them well and they will let you see how pretty your nails can be :).

Lastly sorry I don't any pictures of the tools that I use to do my nails. But to all the girls out there, I am sure you know what to buy ^^.

Karaoke with Moon (good friend) <-- only both of us dungu!!

2009-05-07T14:32:00.004+08:00

Haha!! Yesterday both of us went to sing in karaoke =.=! Amazing isn't it? You could actually imagine how krazie we are :). This happened cause we met before for a "yam cha" session with a few other friends before then suddenly she just suggested that why don't we just go and sing since we haven't sang in ages and I was like "OKAY" (<---happy and excited). So we went to the NEWAY at 1utama.

We sang many songs for hours and hours. Apart from that! We were cam whoring since there's nothing better to do. LOL! It's like when one sings, the other would start taking picture of ourselves. Ewww! I looked so ugly because I didn't make-up last night. I know natural beauty is always da best but for me I'm too OLD for NATURAL BEAUTY. Fuck that! =.= Oh yeah! Stoopid moon took a video fo me singing emotionally. Knowing I was like trying to sing this song really with my heart and she interrupted me by taking a short video of me. I look soooooo ugly! Oh wells, anyway I did have fun though even if it was just the both us.
Sometimes, when you sing with too many people, it's even harder to sing SERIOUSlY. I mean, there's nobody to snatch your microphone =/ (I hate that rawr!). So yeah. When we sing we really sing til our lungs fall out from our body cause that's what we love to do. Singing is like one of our BORE things that we do; it would be just out fo the blue.

The thing about us is that we always have SUDDEN plans and once planned we would go ahead with it. I mean who cares? Don't just suggest something and sit there and with no actions. SUCKS! Say and ACT on it :). Sometimes, we could be sooooooo bored we could actually "yam cha" like 3 times a day =.=. But that only happens when we're like overly free and NBTD (nothing betta to do).

Our hangout place:

Station 1 (Subang)
Food Planet (PJ ss19)
Starbucks (last time)
Mc Donalds (breakfast?)
INC cybercafe - ss2 (Left4Dead)
Jelutong - Damansara Jaya (old hangout but still go time to time)

What we do when we bored?
Karaoke
Shopping
Lan cafe shoot zombies
Yam Cha with other friends
Clubbing - once in blue moon
Criticise bad people - when necessary
Drink honey jasmine - our favourite
Smoke more smoke less

Sounds fun?? Yeah i know. That's us. 8 years with her doing this....OMG!! HELP!! Haha Joking. Want to be part of us? Try hard :P

Today?

2009-05-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

Hmm...didn't blog for so long already. I think I should start and learn to make it a habit to blog everyday =.=! But sometimes i just can't be stuffed typing even though I know it eventually makes me feel better. As there's a lot of things I could type it out but not saying it out in reality. There are certain things I want to post up into this blog but then I don't know how to. I've tried many times but doesn't work :(. Oh wells, I guess these things takes time to learn.

What the fuck man? Anyway, why would I be so vulgar? That's cause my computer's having some period problems, so it hasn't been very good lately. It's either laggy or fast sometimes. Don't know what its trying to tell me. I've been calling and askin' a friend to help me fix it but so far got no reply. I guess that shows that I'm ugly :( ; cause he could like check it out for me and give his service FOC but of course, maybe later treat him drink or something. Looks like since there's no reply, I'd better of send my lap top and CPU to the computer shop. But then it's going to cost me like RM150? Ewww....just to fix my noobish com.

Anyway, I'm like going to graduate soon and become a PURE make-up artist then hopefully I could get a job. I'm so broke (anybody donate some cash? Rm1 also I wouldn't mind!), sometimes I wish I could just print money =.=. Then I could enjoy but then again I have already enjoyed almost half of my life so I guess it's time to MOVE ON, get a job and start earning my own money. Poor mum, been supporting me all the way and working so hard. Hopefully, after working here and some experience, I could get a job in Singapore which I'm not sure if it's a good idea but yeah. I think I have spend most of my entire life in K.L. too long although I lived in Singapore when I was younger. But now I'm already a buffalo so I should probably make a decision on my own. Why Singapore? I'm not sure either but I know I have got few wonderful friends there. Therefore, it wouldn't be as suffering as I thought and at least in Singapore the pay is much higher I could earn than in K.L. (I assume) even though it's quite suffering but no matter what in life, you just have to try. I want to explore the world outside of K.L.? Feel the difference between other countries and mine? Then I could compare and tell myself how lucky I am to be born in Malaysia but yet I would also envy those people in overseas cause their currency is better and they earn not as little as how we work in Malaysia. The only good advantage is that in Malaysia, we get to relax, have fun and stuff. Where else in overseas, you would have to work like shit as you MIGHT not be able to survive there. So, there's always advantages and disadvantages of everything.

Sometimes, it's always better to suffer. Everybody thinks I don't knwo what I am doing and shit. Actually, I do know what i am doing but I'm just lazy that's all. I have patience and I have hope. I won't give up on myself cause I believe no matter how many times i have failed in my years of colleges, I still can do it! Want to MORALLY support me? Hehe please do. It would really help me heaps! In token of appreciation, who knows? You would deserve something from me. Always do good deeds and you will get something better far more than you have given.

"Believe, Hope and Faith" <333 Sherii

Long Distance Relationship

2009-05-05T22:50:00.003+08:00

Having your significant other leave, whether it is for an extended vacation, work or whatever the case is, it can be an extremely difficult obstacle to get past. Without that special someone in your life, you can easily slide into a downward spiral and live in your own personal hell.
The biggest mistake you can ever make is having your significant other leave without any clear indication of how you really feel. Any ambiguous thoughts will leave your girlfriend/boyfriend with no direction as to where the relationship is going and personally, is asking for her to show up on a "Girls Gone Wild" video. Honestly, if you care for the person and want to stay with him/her despite the time apart, tell out how you feel.

4 steps to conqour this type of obstacle in order to keep the love worth waiting for.

1. Set up a schedule:

Once you are separated, you need to take the initiative and set up a schedule or time when the two of you will be able to talk. It doesn't matter if it’s for even ten minutes a night and the conversation is about nothing, you need to set that time aside to show your partner that he/she is important to you and that together, you’ll be able to make it through this period in the relationship.

2. Make yourself busy:

The free time that you now have should not be used sulking around your place whining over the fact that you can’t be together. Honestly, have some self-respect. Get up and do something that you always wanted to do, whether it is a part-time job or volunteering or even getting a gym membership. Whatever it is, make the commitment and go do it. Sometimes blogging or forums can keep you busy as well. Besides, what girlfriend wouldn’t want to see her guy looking lean and cut after those three months apart?

3. Don’t be an idiot:

Cheating on your partner just cause she is in another state, country or continent is still cheating. Being the better person and letting a potential hook-up fall to the wayside is going to make you feel better about yourself and shows that you believe that your relationship is going to make it. Always be conscious in whatever you do and do think twice/thrice to know that your relationship is more important than a one-nighter.

4. Trust

Probably the most important part of any relationship happens to be the last point I’m going to talk about. You have to believe that when your partner tells you through a phone call or email that she/he is going to go to the clubs taht night, it means she/he is going to have a fun time, but will also be faithful to you. Racking your brain over how your partner might be grinding on some random guy/girl, you shouldn’t be in that relationship. Don’t get me wrong, jealousy has it’s place, but you have to realize that you don’t control your partner and everything she/he says and does. If you think this, then I’ll make it simple for you – you’re an idiot, that’s not how it works.

So there you go, five simple basic strategies that will help you get through that time apart and will ultimately make your relationship stronger. Follow these steps (if you BELIEVE it would work for YOU).

Sickness

2009-03-25T22:47:00.003+08:00

OMG!! Today didn't go class as I am sick. Not sure why but last night was fine until before I was about to go to bed my throat hurt like hell suddenly and wasn't able to sleep. When I woke up, my sore throat was a little bit better. but yet I still didn't recover, so i drank a hot cup of "Nestum" and a hot cup of "Milo". Hmm, well worked a little bit but didn't help much. Was so hungry so took a sandwich. Then my throat was alright and then it was my nose turn to start playing tricks on me where I had sneezed about 10 times like in a row? Awesome right? :)
Nonetheless, my mum came home, boiled porridge for me for dinner and then I took some medication.

Come to think of it, I seriously hate having sore throat. It sucks more than having a cold cause a cold is not so bad. Sore throat's like you literally can't speak at all and it hurts so much so that you feel like slicing the throat (sorry for my disgust but can't help it). All I could do the whole day was to just go on "Facebook", browse around anything new and surf the web. Wanted to watch some DVD's but then I've finished watching the NEW one's OMG!!

Hmm, I have been wondering; what's an interesting place to hangout. It seems I've hungout almost whole of Petaling Jaya and Subang Jaya. The others I'm kindda roadblind for it so yeah. Sometimes, you don't just sit at home and blog or "Facebook". Don't get too hooked guys! Get some fresh air, free yourselves from the addictive net. Although yes yes, I know there's is no place like home sometimes but in my opinion, no matter how homely you are go out explore the world. Find out how many bastards there are alive lol! Joking. Relax, go do some shopping and check out some places then let me know :D

Okaiiz. That's it for now! Write again when I'm much better!!
You know you love me. <3

mathematics?

2009-03-14T01:58:00.005+08:00

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH
A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die. m

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals

My Ex's

2009-03-11T00:44:00.005+08:00

Elisha
Met online...was younger than me and I had forgotten how younger he was than me....kindda alright...he was like from Sarawak and then he came to KL to be with me and I went Sarawak as well...Nothin much about him but can saw he's kindda noobie but over rall he is quite nice

Mervin Liew
Hmm.....I think i knew him through somebody then went out with him for a year...He was kindda nice guy but then everything changed after we got together after 6 months...he's kindda cute hehe like his face much but oh well sometimes things and people change...he was 1 of my best ex-bf's...

Mervyn Wong
Hmm...Met this dude when I was kindda drunk in Liquid bar....quite nerdy guy and tall..kindda nice guy cause like he bought me this Diamon & Platinum ruby necklace which is quite expensive...He is quite a quiet person so I did most of the talking...anyway he is studying in the U.S., so we only got together for awhile then he found someone else there...but good for him ^^

Bunnie
As usual from online I knew him but through a game which I have always been playing called "Gunbound". Who is from Australia....been through many things with him and we lasted for a year....I don't wanna deny that he ain't nice...he is nice but just that maybe sometimes things got way out of hand...but still glad that he made an effort to come K.L. to meet me then as months passed I went to Australia to meet him...then we had to call our relationship off...sad...but true...It's all good now.

Calvin
Hmm...this 26 year old guy who has no money and depends on girls mostly...knew him from "Gunbound" also....I hate this ex the most...we went out only for 3-4 months or so I assumed...totally irresponsible...he was like so nice at first and later he just changed...I do admit I was kindda princessy with him but yet it doesn't mean he could hurt my feelings....he hurts me the most...besides that who owes me Rm1,500 the last time...I hope the girls would becareful of this jerk....

Darren Chang
Knew from "Gunbound" as well, just recently broke up...as I think he is way over possessive and couldn't control himself sometimes...I don't blame him...maybe he loves me too much which is kindda scary to me...but then he is realyl a great guy just that he's too over possessed over "love"....It's a sad thing but hopefully he will be alright...

Of course, I have other ex's which are quite bad too but then I don't have their pics as their like history so I don't really have their pictures. Anyway, ladies out there no matter what, should be careful with who you are into. Nowadays, you just can't tell the difference between what's good or bad. Please believe and trust yourself. No matter how great the guy is, every guy has their weakness. Like they always say "Too good to be True".

The Unique Love

2009-03-11T00:35:00.001+08:00

There are two basic types of love that I know in life so far which are both paternal and true.
Paternal love means that the love in your family that can never be replaced or simply found. True love comes from a relationship built in-within that doesn’t relate to destiny.

I strongly believe that true love means both partners committing to each other, understanding and supporting each other as well as sacrificing the times when in need.But sometimes love is indescribable because it happens through expressing upon each other, therefore love can also never be experimented.

The love that I had through out my years of relationships never worked out at all and I have never known why. Most people like my friends told me that maybe I have not found the right one yet or it is not just my destiny. And like I said I don’t really believe in destiny because relationships happen within your own choice. I guess maybe it isn’t the right time yet.
Well, through my own opinion, I think that my relationships didn’t work out because the guys that I met weren’t my type after all.
For example, I am an English educated person and an outgoing person who spends most of the time on the internet. So, the guys that I had were mostly Chinese educated which I wasn’t able to communicate properly and always have misunderstandings amongst each other. They feel offended when I spend my time on the internet because they felt less important. But I do actually love them, just that I couldn’t stop going on the internet because it’s like my life. So in the end of the day, I had to call my relationships off because they somehow couldn’t accept for the fact that I’m an online freak.
But then as I thought, I find it funny because as the years go by and as many relationships I had, I’ve learnt something out of every relationship I had which was good because that made me a better person. I am not afraid to admit that I am not the type of girlfriend who gives in to everything. I could be quite sensitive sometimes depends on what situation. I was quite jealous most of the time. I care in everything that my boyfriend does. I was quite dumb because I always wanted their attention and if I didn’t get it, I’d get pissed off and not talk to him for awhile.

Maybe I was still young then, so I was acting like some baby. Even though I still am until today but I think I had changed a lot since my past relationships. I was always wondering how could I have lost most of my relationships to waste. I mean I wanted to know badly what was wrong. But it wasn’t my fault because most of them had cheated on me. I have failed so many relationships but yet I have not given up because I believe that I would find the right guy one day.

Later on, I was a changed person and why do I say so? Well, I started paying more attention to my studies and just take what comes along. I was more flexible and more open-minded and to change not to be that sensitive in most situations as well as giving in sometimes since I’m quite demanding. I lost trust to most guys because I believe with my experience that they love sweet talking before they get you. It’s like they would do anything just to get you but when they get you they would just change maybe after around three months or so. I don’t know about others but that was what happened to me. Maybe it was better to get to know them better but no matter how, guys are really unpredictable. No offence, but that is really the truth.

To be honest, I prefer to get someone online because I think it could be more challenging as in we could miss each other most of the time since we are far apart. It’s quite difficult but who knows? Anything’s possible. I believe that it’s stupid yet naïve but I don’t mind trying out and taking the risk because to me, I really don’t like the people in my own country and mainly the guys. Some are nice but they are just not my type and I couldn’t be interested or keen in them.

Oh well, love honestly could change a person.

This is so true about who I am?

2009-03-03T16:36:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
A true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2008-10-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

Me?
Lazy mainly who loves anythin dealing with music and people. Been studying for so long but yet not graduated. Oh well? I know, don't need to tell me. But I know what's right for me, I hope?. Clubs was like my favourite pass time, now is more like just drinking sessions with friends. Wanna know more about me? Find out yourself.

My Bestest of Friends:

Moon: Positive attitude with patience, good career
Jeannie: My counsellor and always reasonable at all troubled times
Lili: Never gave up hope and successfully made her dreams come true

I've known them for almost 5 years if I'm not wrong. We were quite close until today but of course sometimes there will always be hard time between us. not everything's perfect you see? We will always have good and bad times. Jeannie's in the U.K. right now working, Moon whom I hangout with most of the time is working as a musician and Lili who's a hairstylist, working too. Recently, not too close with Lili cause of a mistake I made but yet she's still a friend of mine I will never forget. I love them very much and they helped me alot through my years I've known them. There's one thing I know about us which is, we all are on the same boat which made us clicked so well and that's how we got through the years together so long. No matter what people out there, TRUST ME, without friends life's much more harder to live.